England -- Fiction; Love stories; Scholars -- Fiction
Miss Waddington had now been engaged for six months, and hitherto
she had made no confidante. She knew no resident at Littlebath whom
she would willingly trust with her heart's secret: her aunt, and her
aunt's cognizance of the matter were quite another thing. No one
could be more affectionate than aunt Mary, no one more trustworthy,
no one more thoroughly devoted to another than she was to her niece.
But then she was not only old, but old-fashioned. She was prudent,
and Caroline also was prudent; but their prudence was a different
kind. There was no dash, no ambition about aunt Mary's prudence.
She was rather humdrum, Caroline thought; and, which was worse,
though she liked George Bertram, she did not seem to understand his
character at all in the same light as that in which Caroline regarded
it.
From these circumstances it came to pass that Adela had not been a
week at Littlebath before she was made acquainted with the grand
secret. She also had a secret of her own; but she did not tell that
in return. Secrets such as Caroline's are made to be told; but those
other secrets, those which burn up the heart instead of watering it
as with a dew from heaven, those secrets for the most part are not
made to be told.
"And yet, Adela, I suppose it will never happen." This had been said
on the morning of that Saturday which was to bring down not only
Bertram, but Harcourt. Caroline knew well that the London friend,
the man of the world, was being brought to inspect her, and was by
no means afraid of undergoing the inspection. She was not timid by
nature; and though, as has been already said, she was hardly yet
conscious of her powers of attracting, she was never ashamed of
herself.
"And why not? I think that is nonsense, Caroline. If you really
thought that, you would not receive him as you will do, nor his
friend neither."
"I do think it; that is to say, I think it very probable. I cannot
explain to you, Adela, all the turns of my mind, or of my heart. I
would not for worlds of gold marry a man I did not love."
"And do not you love Mr. Bertram?"
"Yes, I do; at times very, very much; but I fear the time may come
when I may love him less. You will not understand me; but the fact
is, I should love him better if he were less worthy of my love--if he
were more worldly."
"No, I do not understand that," said Adela, thinking of her love, and
the worldly prudence of him who should have been her lover.
"That is it--you do not understand me; and yet it is not selfishness
on my part. I would marry a man in the hope of making him happy."
"Certainly," said Adela; "no girl should marry unless she have
reasonable hope that she can do that."
"He would wish me to go to him now, at once; when we have no
sufficient income to support us."
"Four hundred a year!" said Adela, reproachfully.
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