England -- Fiction; Love stories; Scholars -- Fiction
It has been said that Bertram was unwilling to go to Sir Henry's
house. As long as he had thought of remaining in town he was so. But
now he had resolved to fly, and had resolved also that before he did
so he would call in the ordinary way and say one last farewell. John,
the servant, admitted him at once; though he had on that same morning
sent bootless away a score of other suppliants for the honour of
being admitted to Lady Harcourt's presence.
Bertram was standing with his back to the door, looking into a small
conservatory that opened from the drawing-room, when the mistress
of the house entered. She walked straight up to him, after having
carefully closed the door, and just touching his hand, she said, "Mr.
Bertram, why are you here? You should be thousands and thousands of
miles away if that were possible. Why are you here?"
"Lady Harcourt, I will divide myself from you by any distance you may
demand. But may I not come to you to tell you that I am going?"
"To tell me that you are going!"
"Yes. I shall not trouble you much longer. I have become sure of
this: that to remain near you and not to love you, to remain near
you and not to say that I love you is impossible. And therefore I
am going." And he held out his hand, which she had as yet hardly
taken--had barely touched.
He was going; but she was to remain. He would escape; but her prison
bars could not be broken. Ah, that she could have gone with him! How
little now would wealth have weighed with her; or high worldly hopes,
or dreams of ambition! To have gone with him anywhere--honestly to
have gone with him--trusting to honest love and a true heart. Ah! how
much joy is there in this mortal, moribund world if one will but open
one's arms to take it!
Ah! young ladies, sweet young ladies, dear embryo mothers of our
England as it will be, think not overmuch of your lovers' incomes. He
that is true and honest will not have to beg his bread--neither his
nor yours. The true and honest do not beg their bread, though it may
be that for awhile they eat it without much butter. But what then? If
a wholesome loaf on your tables, and a strong arm round your waists,
and a warm heart to lean on cannot make you happy, you are not the
girls for whom I take you.
Caroline's bread was buttered, certainly; but the butter had been
mixed with gall, and she could not bring herself to swallow it. And
now he had come to tell her that he was going; he whose loaf, and
arm, and heart she might have shared. What would the world say of her
if she were to share his flight?
"Good-bye," she said, as she took his proffered hand.
"And is that all?"
"What would you have, Mr. Bertram?"
"What would I have? Ah, me! I would have that which is
utterly--utterly--utterly beyond my reach."
"Yes, utterly--utterly," she repeated. And as she said so, she
thought again, what would the world say of her if she were to share
his flight?
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