Life insurance -- Fiction; Life insurance agents -- Fiction; Short stories
Jonas was a widower, but his wife had been living when he had taken out
this insurance. Now it would go to the sons eventually, if they survived
him, but, meanwhile, they would lose a fortune. Since the death of his
wife, Jonas had given his every thought to the boys and their future. He
reproached himself for the speculations that had deprived him of the
power of helping them as he had planned in earlier days; he felt that
somehow he had defrauded them. So deeply did he feel this that from the
day he gave up his real estate business he never had put one dollar into
a speculation of any kind, except so far as his investment in their
business was a speculation.
“If we could make that go,” he mused, as he crouched miserably in the
big chair, “I should be content. I owe it to the boys to see them fairly
started. I was in a position to do it once and I lost the money
foolishly—their money, by rights, for I had put it aside for them. And
here am I, almost useless—a business wreck—too old to begin again as an
employee and lacking the capital to be an employer or to do business of
any sort for myself. Instead of helping my boys, I am to be a burden to
them—until I die. I am of value only in the grave.” He shuddered and
seemed to sink still lower in the chair. “It is my duty to do what I can
for them,” he added. “I am useless, but life is before them—a
continuation of my life. I must be a success through my sons.”
Benson, a friend, stopped near him.
“What’s the matter, Kalin?” asked Benson. “You look blue.”
Kalin looked up at Benson in a dazed way, and for a moment seemed to be
unable to grasp the fact that he had been addressed.
“Benson,” he said at last, his eyes wandering dreamily about the room,
“is a man ever justified in committing suicide?”
Benson was startled, but he replied promptly and emphatically, “Never.”
“Suppose,” Kalin went on, “that your life intervened between those you
love and happiness; suppose that your life meant misery and failure for
them, while your death meant success and—and comfort.”
Benson drew up a chair and placed his hand on Kalin’s arm as if to
emphasize his words.
“_The Lord gave and the Lord hath taken away_,” he quoted earnestly.
“Life is God’s gift and should be treasured as such. You may not return
it until He calls, unless you would doubt His wisdom.”
Kalin nodded his head thoughtfully.
“Men have gone to certain death for those they love and been glorified
for so doing,” he argued.
“A man may _give_ his own life to save the life of another and be a
hero,” returned Benson, “but he may not _take_ his own life for any
cause and be aught but a coward.”
“What matters it whether he takes it or gives it, so long as the purpose
is the same?” asked Kalin.
Benson gripped the arm on which his hand lay and shook Kalin.
“Wake up!” he commanded sharply. “What’s the matter with you to-day?”
Kalin roused himself, as if from a dream, and laughed in a forced,
dreary way.
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