China -- History -- 20th century -- Fiction; Missionaries, Medical -- Fiction
The amah came in, turned on the light, and a moment later her supper
arrived. Megan ate it, conscious that she was tired now mentally and
physically. The food brought a warmth to her body and a soothing
dulness to her mind. It occurred to her that Mr. Shultz in spite of
his vulgarity reminded her faintly of Bob. She could not put her
finger on the resemblance, unless (she chose the best traits) it
might be a certain efficient and unimaginative acceptance of
difficult situations. Almost as casually it struck her that she
would probably never marry Bob. It seemed that she had just heard
those words spoken lightly by some one, not as though she herself had
formulated them. A pang so deep that it touched some raw inner root
shot through her. Megan dropped her spoon and rested her head in her
hands. It was better not to think when thinking produced only
unexpected and unhappy thoughts, dangerous thoughts. She resolved to
put Bob and the General out of her mind, to let their relations slide
past her for the time being, and of course take them up again
to-morrow. She managed to keep her mind blank by eating, with great
attention to the soothing effects of warm food. She looked at the
objects around the room once more, the gaudy quilts on the bed, the
painting of the monkeys, the dark blue bowl of plum, a replica of
which was in every room in the yamen, like an intimate personal
signature. Whose, she wondered, Mah-li's or the General's?
Megan did not wait to smoke a cigarette, she dropped over on the bed
and lay inviting fatigue to overcome her. She fell asleep.
She heard a knocking at her door that grew into pounding before she
could rouse herself to answer it.
"Come in," she said sleepily.
The General's orderly opened the door and brought her a note. It was
from the General and suggested she join the poker game. Megan's
watch said ten-forty. Rather late. But in view of what Mr. Shultz
had said it might be better to stay awake and spend the evening in
their company. She rather gingerly examined her mental condition, as
lately she had been examining her bruised body on awakening. It
seemed to be once more sound, empty, untroubled.
Megan got up and brushed her hair carefully before Mah-li's mirror.
She powdered her face and added a touch of lipstick because she did
not want to look at all afraid or even anxious. Then she followed
the orderly across the court.
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