ALL that night Abner heard Gladys crying softly and Mary moving about in
the room beneath him. In the small hours she knocked at his door and
begged him to take Morgan into his bed. Gladys was so restless that the
child could not get to sleep. They spoke together with the oak door
between them, and a moment later, having knocked again, she thrust a
small, red-eyed figure into the room. Abner picked him up and carried
him into bed. The child nestled close to him, like a small, warm-blooded
animal. Abner wrapped him up in his arms, protectively, as though, by
steadying his muscles, he could compel him to settle down to sleep.
Morgan’s fingers lay gently on his forearm, soft and listless. He was so
quiet that Abner thought he had fallen asleep already. In this he was
mistaken. The change of rooms and the adventure of finding a new
bedfellow had completely wakened him, and when he had lain dead still for
a little while, Morgan’s fingers began to stroke Abner’s arm. Then he
fidgeted and spoke in a reverent whisper:
‘Abner, are you awake?’
‘Ay, what is it?’
‘Why is your arm all hairy, Abner?’
‘Why? Because I’m grown up.’
‘Mam’s isn’t,’ said Morgan, after a thoughtful pause, and then: ‘I like
being here.’
‘Then don’t you go asking questions or I’ll put you out again,’ said
Abner.
After this the child was quiet. He lay there burning in Abner’s arms.
Falling asleep, his limbs relaxed, and then, suddenly clutching at
consciousness, twitched violently. These movements were like those of a
very young animal, feeble and frightened, and Abner, feeling them,
gathered the child more closely in his arms, until he moved no longer
save with the gentle breathing of a sweet sleep.
Abner had never slept with a child before. It gave him a queer, almost
physical sensation of comfort in addition to the protective emotions
which Morgan’s helplessness aroused. He had never thought seriously what
it would be like to have a child of his own, and even now he did not
explain his feelings in that way. He pictured himself, for a moment, in
the position of father to a child of Susie Hind’s, and the prospect did
not move him. The only way in which he could explain this curious
enthralling tenderness was by the fact that Morgan was really part of
Mary, that the child had come to him straight from the warmth of her
arms, carrying with him an impalpable essence of herself. He wondered
vaguely what he would have felt like if the child had been not only
Mary’s but his as well, and in the midst of these tender and dangerous
reflections he fell asleep himself.
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