It was lucky for her that she wrenched herself away from him, for Abner’s
blood was in his head. She went running like a madwoman over the ghostly
field. If she had stayed he could have murdered her. Slowly following,
he came to himself, and wondered what the devil he was doing in that damp
field in the middle of the night. He cursed all women as he saw them in
her violent image, but when he set his feet on the high road, his anger
had subsided and he began to realise how blind he had been. He knew that
Susie had probably spoken no less than the truth about the local
scandals. Looking backward he found that he could explain the smiles and
winks and sidelong glances of his mates. Fine friends they were, who
made sport of a man and never told him why! And it dawned on him, still
stupidly incredulous, that this trouble and nothing else was the cause of
the change in Mary’s behaviour, the thing that had snatched her so
violently away from him. No doubt it had come to her ears through Mrs
Mamble. All women were spiteful by nature, and could not resist the
pleasant temptation of giving pain to others of their kind. They had let
her know in some covert way what folk were saying, and she, too proud to
confide in him, was protecting herself as best she could. He knew her
pride . . . he wished to God she were not so proud, and yet, since that
was her nature, he must be patient with her.
He was not built for patience. Walking home to Wolfpits with the high
road beneath him, and the mild humming of telegraph wires that stretched
away to the ends of the earth above, he felt once more the restlessness
with which his spirit was so familiar: the desire that had come over him
in fierce gusts from time to time ever since the days of his childhood,
the will to be free, to cut all coils and launch out into the life to
which he had a right. Ever since his boyhood he had been as much a
prisoner as George Malpas, and for even less reason. Breaking free from
Mawne and reaching out over these hills, he had merely passed from one
prison to another. The only periods of freedom he had known had been
those dimly-remembered days with his father before Alice came to
Hackett’s Cottages, and the week of his travels on the road with Mick
Connor. Always, somehow or other, a woman had been at the bottom of his
slavery. Women were the curse of his existence. It pleased him fiercely
to think that in his breach with Susie he had shorn through one of these
shackles. He hated women, and yet, in his heart, he could not remember
Mary without tenderness, and knew that, however loudly he might protest,
he was going back along the road to Wolfpits of his own free will, and
whatever it might cost him, must stay there until George Malpas returned.
That night he was too late to see Mary; but next morning, when he arrived
at the work, he tackled Munn on the subject of the Redlake scandal.
‘What do they say about me and Mrs Malpas, Joe?’ he asked.
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