United States -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Villages -- Fiction
"Oh, well, fairishly--but of course I haven't studied as faithfully as I
might."
"I should think you couldn't afford to be negligent."
I played up the four of spades and put a king of hearts in the space
thus happily secured.
"I have read," I answered absently, "that a benevolent man should allow
himself a few faults to keep his friends in countenance. I mustn't be
everything perfect, you know."
"Don't restrain yourself in the least on my account."
"You are my sole trouble," I said, playing a black seven on a red eight.
She looked off the table as I glanced up at her.
I am a patient enough man, I believe, and I hope meek and lowly, but I
saw suddenly that not all the beatitudes should be taken without
reservation.
"I repeat," I said, for she had not spoken, "your presence is the most
troubling thing I know. It keeps me back in my studies."
"There's a red five for that black six," she observed.
"Thank you!" and I made the play.
"Then you're not a Sannyasin yet?"
"I've nearly taken the first degree. Sometimes after hard practice I can
succeed in not hating anything for as much as an hour."
I dealt eight more cards and became, to outward seeming, I hope,
absorbed in the new aspect of the game.
"Perseverance will be rewarded," she said kindly. "You can't expect to
learn it all at once."
"You might try not to make it harder for me."
Again had I been a third person of fair discernment, I believe I should
have sworn that I caught in her eyes a gleam of hardened, relentless
determination; but she only pointed to a four of hearts which I was
neglecting to play up.
"Why not play the game to win?" she asked, and there was that in her
voice which was like to undo me--a tone and the merest fanning of my
face by her loose sleeve as she pointed to the card.
Suddenly I knew that honor was not in me. She walked within my lines in
imminent peril of the deadliest character. But there was no sign of fear
in the look she held me with, and I knew she had not sensed her danger.
"You should play your stupid game to win," she repeated terribly. "You
are too ingenious at finding balm in defeat." That little golden
roughness in her voice seemed to grate on my bared heart. I left her
eyes with a last desperate appeal to the game. My hand shook as it laid
down the final eight cards.
"Have I ever had any reason to think I could win?" I found I could ask
this if I kept my eyes upon the cards.
She laughed a curious, almost silent, confidential little laugh, through
which a sigh of despair seemed to breathe.
I looked quickly up, but again there was that strange gleam in her eyes,
a gleam of sternest resolve I should have called it under other
circumstances.
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