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The vulgar impertinence of Cutbill made indeed but little impression
upon him. An annoyance while it lasted, it still left nothing for memory
that could not be dismissed with ease. It was Marion. It was what she
had said that weighed so painfully on his heart, wounding where he was
most intensely and delicately sensitive. She had told him--what had she
told him? He tried to recall her exact words, but he could not. They
were in reply to remarks of his own, and owed all their significance to
the context. One thing she certainly had said--that there were certain
steps in life about which the world held but one opinion, and the
allusion was to men marrying late in life; and then she added a
remark as to the want of “sympathy”--or was it “harmony” she called
it?--between them. How strange that he could not remember more exactly
all that passed, he, who, after his interviews with Ministers and
great men, could go home and send off in an official despatch the whole
dialogue of the audience. But why seek for the precise expressions
she employed? The meaning should surely be enough for him, and that
was--there was no denying it--that the disparity of their ages was a bar
to his pretensions. “Had our ranks in life been alike, there might have
been force in her observation; but she forgets that a coronet encircles
a brow like a wreath of youth;” and he adjusted the curls of his wig
as he spoke, and smiled at himself more successfully than he had done
before.
“On the whole, perhaps it is better,” said he, as he arose and walked
the room. “A mésalliance can only be justified by great beauty or great
wealth. One must do a consumedly rash thing, or a wonderfully sharp
one, to come out well with the world. Forty thousand, and a good-looking
girl--she is n't more--would not satisfy the just expectations of
society, which, with men like myself, are severely exacting.”
He had met with a repulse, he could not deny it, and the sense of pain
it inflicted galled him to the quick. To be sure, the thing occurred in
a remote, out-of-the-way spot, where there were no people to discover
or retail the story. It was not as if it chanced in some cognate land of
society where such incidents get immediate currency and form the gossip
of every coterie. Who was ever to hear of what passed in an Irish
country-house? Marion herself indeed might write it--she most probably
would--but to whom?
To some friend as little in the world as herself, and none knew better
than Lord Culduff of how few people the “world” was composed. It was a
defeat, but a defeat that need never be gazetted. And, after all, are
not the worst things in all our reverses, the comments that are passed
upon them? Are not the censures of our enemies and the condolences of
our friends sometimes harder to bear than the misfortunes that have
evoked them?
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