American fiction -- 20th century; Chicago (Ill.) -- Fiction; Journalists -- Fiction; Marriage -- Fiction
“Yes,” he said, “and I’m doing all Hawkins’s work now, and in the fall I
will get a respectable salary, I expect, so why need we—”
“I don’t mean that,” she said. “I mean your writing.” Ever since that
morning at the St. Dunstan, Felix had been writing at odd times,
at—heaven knew just what, he wasn’t sure himself—something that might
perhaps be called a play, but so fantastic a thing as yet that he had
not even ventured to show any of the fragments of it to Rose-Ann; she
had been very nice about it, too, never asking him to let her see what
he had done the night before ... to furnish the justification, as it
were, for staying up until all hours. Felix wasn’t at all certain that
they constituted such a justification. They were probably mere folly:
but, so far, they were all he could attempt.
“You have your writing,” Rose-Ann was saying. “And I haven’t anything.”
“You used to write, Rose-Ann,” he said.
“I know. Not much.”
“You need not have given up your class at Community House,” he
suggested.
“It wasn’t enough, any longer. I want something else.”
“What?”
“I don’t know. Something to use up my energies. I can’t stay here and
play keeping house in a studio. There’s no excuse for it. That’s why we
have a studio, Felix! So we can each be free. Why are you so stubborn
about it?”
“I’m not being stubborn, Rose-Ann. I’m just being candid. I can’t stop
you from going out and getting a job. But I can tell the truth and say I
don’t like the idea! And that’s all I can do. If it means so much to
you, you’ll have to do it in spite of my not liking it, that’s all....
It isn’t as if there were some particular thing you wanted to do—I
wouldn’t say a word against that. But work in general—work for the sake
of work—that just means a little more money, which we don’t need, and
your coming home tired at night.... After all, Rose-Ann, I want a
wife....”
She grew suddenly cold. “Then you should have married somebody else,”
she said. “I don’t want to be—a wife!”
And they went out to dinner in an estranged silence.
2
These silences, inexplicable and impenetrable, would spring up between
them, and then as inexplicably dissolve—sometimes in tears, sometimes in
laughter.
That night when they came home to their studio and started to undress
for bed, Rose-Ann changed back suddenly to her accustomed self; and his
own mood, a moment ago puzzled and angry, could not withstand the
influence of her smile. Then both of them were sorry, and accused
themselves inwardly of the fault.... Felix could see why she objected to
being merely “a wife,” and wondered that he had been so crass as to say
such a thing ... and they sought with passionate tenderness to make each
other forget....
“Do I make you happy, Felix?”
“Yes.... And are you happy?”
“Yes,”—a little sadly, in spite of herself.
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