American fiction -- 20th century; Chicago (Ill.) -- Fiction; Journalists -- Fiction; Marriage -- Fiction
“And so you came to Chicago....”
“Yes, and became a settlement-worker. It seems a pitiful climax to my
story, doesn’t it? And yet, if one lives in twentieth-century America
instead of in Ancient Greece, what is one to do? It seemed to me a good
pagan life, to try to bring about a better world for everybody—a world
in which beauty would count for something.... At one time I thought I
was a socialist, but I found that I couldn’t bear to attend stuffy
meetings, and that I couldn’t understand Marx and didn’t want to. And I
wasn’t interested in woman suffrage, either. My life had to be centred
around something personal. So—”
“So you taught those children how to play....”
“It was the Greekliest thing I knew to do.... If Aspasia had been born
in Springfield, Illinois, _she_ might have taken a class in a Chicago
settlement!” Rose-Ann said defiantly—and then, doubtfully, “What do you
think of it all?”
“I don’t know,” he said—“it leaves me bewildered—except that I think
you’re a wonderful child.”
“It’s you who are wonderful,” she said, “to understand. I _am_ a child,
I suppose—and I want to stay one always. I don’t want to grow up. That’s
very foolish, isn’t it? Do you know that horrible habit some married
people have of addressing each other as ‘Pa’ and ‘Ma’—as soon as they
have a baby, I mean? I suppose it’s meant as a joke. And I suppose it’s
a joke, too, when a man refers to his wife as ‘the old woman.’ When I
was a little girl, I vowed to myself that no man would ever have the
right to call me his ‘old woman.’ Or ... but then, we shan’t ever have
any children, shall we? You remember what I said—the talk we had in the
hospital that day. I meant that, Felix.”
Felix’s mind was fumbling for the lost thread of their discourse.
Rose-Ann’s talk had a disconcerting way of suddenly leaping from one
idea to another. How did they come to be talking about children? She had
brought them in, without rhyme or reason, more than once tonight. And
each time he had remembered with a sense of discouragement and vague
shame that moment at the hospital when he had not had the courage to
tell her that he wanted to be—everything that it seemed he need not be
after all. He wanted now to say something—but what could he say? Some
other time, perhaps, when he had a chance to think things out more
clearly.... It did not need to be settled now.
“Why,” he said confusedly, “we did talk about it, yes. I don’t suppose
we can afford to—” He was going to add “right away,” but Rose-Ann
interrupted him.
“Oh, dear!” she said, “I’ve forgotten—I promised to let my father know
our address, as soon as we found a place to live, so he could come and
see us, and I forgot all about it! Felix, will you bring me pencil and
paper, please? I’ll write to him now.”
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