American fiction -- 20th century; Chicago (Ill.) -- Fiction; Journalists -- Fiction; Marriage -- Fiction
His economic status, moreover, even upon Clive’s calculations, was
secure for another year at least. And he was writing again, this time to
please himself. Rose-Ann should have no cause for complaint upon that
score....
And yet the vague anxieties persisted in the background of his thoughts.
It was as though he had in some way lost confidence in Rose-Ann.
He told himself that it was only that he knew her better now. He had
been foolish to assume that he could trust utterly in her instincts for
guidance. She was, like him, a bewildered wanderer, not knowing the
right path. She was more like himself than he had ever dreamed.
He could not rely blindly upon her. He must decide things for himself.
It made him feel a little lonely, a little frightened—as one might feel
in the woods, discovering that one’s guide is a romantic ignoramus like
oneself!
2
That was one reason why he did not want to show Rose-Ann the new play
upon which he was working. It would have pleased her—perhaps all too
well! In this play, a variation upon the familiar triangle situation,
the heroine kept her husband because she was not afraid to lose him....
Yes, that would have pleased Rose-Ann. Then why did Felix feel absurdly
guilty of some kind of spiritual disloyalty to her in writing it?
He did not quite know; but it was true that when Rose-Ann was in the
studio he could not with any freedom work on that play....
Rose-Ann felt this, and presently suggested that he try the experiment
of working in a rented room somewhere not too far from the studio. He
was surprised to find that in talking with Rose-Ann he indignantly
repelled the idea as totally objectionable. He was absurdly angry at her
for suggesting it.
It would have been intolerable if Rose-Ann had been jealous of his
writing; and yet he was behaving as though she _ought_ to be jealous of
it.... A strange quirk of the imagination!
Was he disappointed in her for not being the mentor and guide he had
tried to believe her—angry at her for insisting upon his finding his own
pathway through the woods?
3
When Rose-Ann brought up for a second time the subject of a work-room,
Felix admitted that it might be worth considering. And that same day he
went out room-hunting. He had not admitted to himself that he really
wanted such a place—but when, in a house on Garfield Boulevard, he found
a little room with a table and a cot, he decided that he must have it.
He told the landlady he would probably need it only a short time, and
paid two weeks’ rent, with the option of renewal....
He did not want to tell Rose-Ann about it. He said to himself that he
wanted to wait until he found whether he liked it or not. And he did
wait until he had spent an afternoon there writing, before telling her.
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