American fiction -- 20th century; Chicago (Ill.) -- Fiction; Journalists -- Fiction; Marriage -- Fiction
He picked it up, and sat down at his desk. At the very sight of it, of
her large undisciplined handwriting on the square envelope, her presence
seemed suddenly to fill the room, like a perfume of flowers—seemed to
touch and envelope and caress him. He breathed deeply, and the
constraint that had held him tense, that had held him rigid all these
days and nights, flowed from him. It was as if she had returned
herself—and all at once all that had passed was like a nightmare,
terrible and queer, but already vanishing into oblivion with the
daylight.
He could feel her presence, hear her voice, sweet and familiar; she was
as if beside him in the room. All that their marriage had been flooded
his mind, memories of peace and happiness and lovely companionship.
Nothing—nothing could break that bond. She knew it as well as he. As if
a mere moment could hurt that lifetime of theirs together!
He tore open the letter.
_Dear Felix Fay_—
That was the way it began....
_Dear Felix Fay—What has happened of course makes it necessary
for us to make a decision—a decision which I cannot make alone.
We have many things in common—tastes, ideas, a love of
beauty—and it seems that it would be a pity if we were to lose
the opportunity for companionship altogether. We cannot, of
course, go on as before—I mean living together so intimately. I
can find another studio, perhaps near yours.—But I do not know
if I am making myself clear. It may sound as if I were proposing
to break off our relationship altogether. I have considered
that, too; but that is, after all, in your hands. What I am
suggesting is that each of us retain our freedom, and live in
such a way that we can use that freedom without hurting each
other’s feelings—but not pretending to be married any more. Only
the situation must be quite clear to both of us. Please tell me
whether you agree definitely to these terms. If so, I think
everything can be arranged in detail so that we both will be
happy._
_Rose-Ann._
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Felix’s first feeling, oddly enough, when he read this letter, was a
sense of Rose-Ann’s disloyalty to their studio—the studio which they had
made together.... His imagination, stunned and shocked, clung bitterly
to this one point, as if that were the crux of the matter.... That she
should not want to live in this studio, this studio whose walls she had
kalsomined, whose very floor she had painted! Why, every part of it
spelled her! As if he could take her studio, and let her go and live in
another! If there was any moving to be done, he would do it. He would
get another place. She could live here—she must live here.... He would
take a few books—no, he would take nothing. It was all hers....
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