American fiction -- 20th century; Chicago (Ill.) -- Fiction; Journalists -- Fiction; Marriage -- Fiction
HE had decided to write—what, he did not know yet: and it did not
matter: something, anything, a play, a poem, a story—whatever came into
his head, good or bad. It would occupy his time.
He spent a happy evening buying the materials of writing at a stationery
store. He bought a dozen penholders, a quantity of his favourite stub
pens, two bottles of a thick black indelible ink, half a ream of good
thin bond paper, a great blotting-pad and a whole stack of small
blotters. That afternoon he had bought a copy of Roget’s “Thesaurus,”
without which the literary life is mere vexation; and a good, fat,
reliable little dictionary with “derivations.” Going to his room, he
lighted the gas, arranged these materials on his little table, gazed at
them with pleasure—and realized that he had forgotten to buy an
eyeshade. He went back to the stationery store, and returned with a
half-dozen eyeshades of the best pattern, the kind that do not saw the
ears or get tangled in the hair. It appeared to him also that the
gas-light really would not do; he must get a kerosene student’s lamp; it
would be a nuisance to keep it filled and trimmed, and the chimney
clean—but the literary life has its inevitable penalties.... He would
get a student’s lamp and a gallon can of kerosene tomorrow.
He sat down again at the little table, fitted a stub pen into his
penholder, lighted a match, and held the steel point in the blaze, to
burn off the oil and take out the temper, making it soft and flexible
and easy to write with. He uncorked the ink, wiped out the neck of the
bottle with a blotter, and dipped his pen in. Yes, the pen held a full
sentence’s-worth of ink, as it should. There was nothing the matter with
the pen. He took a sheaf of paper from the great pile on the back of the
desk, laid it at the proper angle, adjusted his chair, dipped the pen
again, poised it above the virgin paper—and remembered that he had only
two cigarettes left in the box. One cannot do a good night’s writing
without plenty of cigarettes. He went down to the cigar store and
returned with five boxes.
Once more he dipped his pen, lifted it ...
An hour later he roused himself from the vague waking dream in which his
mind had been immersed. The sheet of paper was covered with lines and
circles, stars, geometrical figures, childish pictures of houses with
smoke coming out of the chimneys, illegible words, his own initials, and
crude attempts to draw the outline of a girl’s arm; and amidst all this,
carefully obliterated, so that he could hardly recognize it himself, the
name—_Rose-Ann_, _Rose-Ann_, _Rose-Ann_....
He tore the sheet into tiny fragments, brushed them to the floor, and
then got down on his hands and knees and carefully picked them up. He
must remember to buy a wastebasket for his room tomorrow. He looked at
his watch. It was twelve o’clock. He would go in and see Roger and Don;
if they were staying up late, they might offer him some coffee.
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