American fiction -- 20th century; Chicago (Ill.) -- Fiction; Journalists -- Fiction; Marriage -- Fiction
“You’re welcome to him,” said the doctor. “He’s perfectly well.”
“Can he leave—right away?”
“This moment, if you like.”
“Good. I’ll go and call a taxi. Be ready as soon as you can, Felix.”
“But where are we going,” Felix asked. He did not want to go back to the
settlement, which he felt that he had in a way deserted; and he had an
idea that Rose-Ann would not let him go back to Canal street.
“I don’t know. I forgot—” said Rose-Ann, sitting down on the bed again
with a helpless air. Then she burst out laughing. “I was going to take
you home—I was under the impression for the moment that we were
married!”
“We can _get_ married,” said Felix, uncomfortably, feeling that an
important matter was being disposed of rather cursorily.
She laughed again. “We can, yes. And I’m afraid that is what is going to
happen to us; aren’t you, Felix?”
The doctor smiled and left them.
“I know,” she said. “It’s an unfair advantage to take of an invalid. But
what else can we do?”
“I only want to be sure—” said Felix.
“Of what?”
“You read my letter, didn’t you—that terribly long letter, about that
girl back in Iowa....”
“Yes, dear.”
“Well, you can see from that—I mean, I’m afraid you will think I’m not
the sort of person who—”
“Who what, Felix?”
“Who makes a good husband. But, Rose-Ann—”
“Oh, I know that, Felix dear. And—I don’t want a good husband. I want
you.”
“But—” He wanted to tell her that that was all over now—that he would
try to be all that she wished....
“I understand,” Rose-Ann was saying. “You told me in that letter that
there was something in you that rebelled against reality.
Irresponsible—unstable—you used those words. ‘Too unstable for ordinary
domestic happiness,’ I think you said. Well ... who wants ordinary
domestic happiness?”
“But,” Felix said earnestly, raising himself up on one elbow, “a girl
wants—more than an interesting lover. She wants ... some certainties in
her life. A home, children, and the promise of security for them. I—”
He wanted to be brave—to offer those certainties. But it was too rash,
too bold a promise. How did he know he could fulfil it?
“I’d have to become very different, wouldn’t I?” he said hesitantly.
Rose-Ann spoke very quietly. “I don’t want you to be different, Felix.
I’m not that girl back in Iowa. I’m—me. I don’t want to be supported—I
don’t need to be; I told you I’ve a tiny but sufficient income of my
own now. And I don’t want the kind of home you speak of, Felix—I want
to go on living my own life outside the home. And—I think, Felix ...
that perhaps there are enough children in the world without—without
vagabonds and dreamers like us taking on such—interesting but
unnecessary—responsibilities.... I really don’t want us to be married
at all, Felix; but I’m not brave enough to dispense with
the—rigmarole. I want you to have your freedom, and I mine. I don’t
ask any promises of you—any at all. I know what we are like.
Freedom—for each other and ourselves—that’s what we want, Felix. Isn’t
it?”
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