American fiction -- 20th century; Chicago (Ill.) -- Fiction; Journalists -- Fiction; Marriage -- Fiction
But his mind went back to their life in the country—to the cooking of
that first breakfast in the kitchen, to their first dinner after walking
through miles of snow, to the bed of their happy love and sleep, the
tingling snow-baths at dawn, and the fire in front of which they had sat
and talked for so many lazy hours—and it seemed to him, without quite
understanding why, that Rose-Ann was really denouncing her own life
there with him! A kitchen, a table, a bed, a bath, a fire—hadn’t these
things circumscribed their life? “People like _that_,” she had said,
bitterly. Who were these people but their own happy selves of the past
week? And why had she turned so fiercely against that happiness?
All these things passed through his mind swiftly and vaguely, an emotion
rather than a thought: an emotion of mingled anger and pity—a strange
anger and a strange pity that he could not understand. Vaguely he sensed
the existence in her of a tragically divided mind, torn between the
desire to sink deep into the lap of that simple and traditional
domesticity she had been experiencing, and the fear of some profound
hurt and shame in making that surrender in vain....
But if he sensed this struggle in her, it was not very clearly, and it
was obscured by his effort to think the situation out in logical terms.
“Confound it,” he thought, “if we live in town, we _must_ live in an
apartment—and all apartments are more or less alike. Of course, some are
bigger than others. It is probably the cramped space that she objects
to, after that house in the country. Well, if I get my raise—let me
see....”
Across the aisle were two women interestedly talking with each other,
one of them a young mother, with a rather frightened little tow-headed
boy of a year old in her lap. He had been enduring this strange
adventure rather stoically, but he felt neglected, and his lips were
curving down further and further toward the danger point of tears. He
was feeling very sorry for himself.... Rose-Ann had watched the small
lips begin to twist and the round chin begin to tremble, and she leaned
forward and smiled at him—a smile which interested him, which he
considered hesitantly, and at last found irresistible and answered
wholeheartedly with a beaming one of his own. This was not such a cold
and indifferent world after all; somebody did love him!
Rose-Ann looked up, rather furtively, at Felix, who was engaged in
computing his rent-paying capacity. The women got out at the next stop,
and she leaned back in her seat.
“Some time,” Felix was saying, “we might be able to have a house in the
country like Clive’s....”
“We don’t want a house in the country,” said Rose-Ann energetically.
“What would we do with a house in the country? No, we want a place in
town, convenient to our work, yours and mine.”
“Your work?—you mean your dramatic class?” asked Felix, reflecting that
Rose-Ann was rather changeable. Only a few days ago she had hated to
come to town....
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