Historical fiction; Norway -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Women -- Norway -- Fiction
He had been a good husband to her—so he had ever thought. He had shown
her all the honour he could, given her full power in her own affairs,
and asked her counsel in all things; he had been true to her—and they
had had six children together. All he had asked had been that he might
live with her, without her for ever grasping at this thing in his heart
that he would not lay bare—
To none had he ever borne love—Ingunn, Karl Steinsön’s wife, at Bru?
Lavrans flushed red in the pitch darkness. He had been their guest ever,
as often as he journeyed down the Dale. He could not call to mind that
he had spoken with the housewife _once_ alone. But when he saw her—if he
but thought of her, a sense came over him as of the first breath of the
plough-lands in the spring, when the snows are but now melted and gone.
He knew it now—it might have befallen him too—he, too, could have loved.
But he had been wedded so young, and he had grown shy of love. And so
had it come about that he throve best in the wild woods—or out on the
waste uplands—where all things that live must have wide spaces around
them—room to flee through—fearfully they look on any stranger that would
steal upon them—
One time in the year there was, when all the beasts in the woods and on
the mountains forgot their shyness—when they rushed to their mates. But
his had been given him unsought. And she had proffered him all he had
not wooed her for.
But the young ones in the nest—they had been the little warm green spot
in the wilderness—the inmost, sweetest joy of his life. Those little
girl-heads under his hand—
Marriage—they had wedded him, almost unasked. Friends—he had many, and
he had none. War—it had brought him gladness, but there had been no more
war—his armour hung there in the loft-room, little used. He had turned
farmer—But he had had his daughters—all his living and striving had
grown dear to him, because by it he cherished them and made them safe,
those soft, tender little beings he had held in his hands. He remembered
Kristin’s little two-year-old body on his shoulder, her flaxen, silky
hair against his cheek; her small hands holding to his belt, while she
butted her round, hard child’s forehead against his shoulder-blades,
when he rode out with her behind him on his horse.
And now had she that same glow in her eyes—and she had won what was
hers. She sat there in the half-shadow against the silken pillows of the
bed. In the candle-light she was all golden—golden crown and golden
shift and golden hair spread over the naked golden arms. Her eyes were
shy no longer—
Her father winced with shame.
And yet it was as though his heart was bleeding within him, for what he
himself had never won; and for his wife, there by his side, whom he had
never given what should have been hers.
Weak with pity, he felt in the darkness for Ragnfrid’s hand:
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