Egypt -- History -- Fiction; German fiction -- Translations into English
At night, after long lying awake, when she woke from a snatch of uneasy
sleep, she involuntarily listened for the faint panting breath, but no
heart now throbbed by her side; and when she quitted her lonely couch at
dawn the coming day lay before her as a desert and treeless solitude. By
night, as by day, she constantly tried to call up the image of the dead,
but whenever her small imaginative power had succeeded in doing so--not
unfrequently at first--she had seen him as in the last moments of his
life, a curse on his only son on his trembling lips. This horrible
impression deprived her of the last consolation of the mourner: a
beautiful memory, while it destroyed her proud and glad satisfaction in
her only child. The youth, who had till now been her soul’s idol, was
stigmatized and branded in her eyes. She might not ignore the burden
laid on Orion by that most just man; instead of taking him to her heart
with double tenderness and softening or healing the fearful punishment
inflicted by his father, she could only pity him. When Orion came to see
her she would stroke his waving hair and, as she desired not to wound
him and make him even more unhappy than he must be already, she neither
blamed nor admonished him, and never reminded him of his father’s curse.
And how beggared was that frugal heart, accustomed to spend all its
store of love on so few objects--nay, chiefly on one alone who was now
no more!
The happy voices of the children had always given her pleasure, so
long as they did not disturb her suffering husband; now, they too were
silent. She had withdrawn the sunshine of her narrow affection from her
only grandchild, who had hitherto held a place in it, for little Mary
had had a share in the horrors that had come upon her and Orion in her
husband’s last moments. Indeed, the bereaved woman’s excited fancy had
firmly conceived the mad notion that the child was the evil genius of
the house and the tool of Satan.
Neforis had, however, enjoyed some hours of greater ease during the last
two days. In the misery of wakefulness which was beginning to torture
her like an acute pain, she had suddenly recollected what relief from
sleeplessness her husband had been wont to find in the opium pillules,
and a box of the medicine, only just opened, was at hand. And was not
she, too, suffering unutterable wretchedness? Why should she neglect
the remedy which had so greatly mitigated her husband’s distress? It was
said to have a bad effect after long and frequent use, and she had often
checked the Mukaukas in taking it too freely; but could her sufferings
be greater? Would she not, indeed, be thankful to the drug if it should
shorten her miserable existence?
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