Now as I went, it was as if there were two voices arguing together
within me, whereof ensued the following triangular conversation:
MYSELF. Yet I have my books—I will go to my lonely cottage and bury
myself among my books.
FIRST VOICE. Assuredly! Is it for a philosopher to envy a whistling
axe-fellow—go to!
SECOND VOICE. Far better a home and loving companionship than all the
philosophy of all the schools; surely Happiness is greater than
Learning, and more to be desired than Wisdom!
FIRST VOICE. Better rather that Destiny had never sent her to you.
MYSELF (rubbing my chin very hard, and staring at nothing in
particular). Her?
SECOND VOICE. Her!—to be sure, she who has been in your thoughts all
day long.
FIRST VOICE (with lofty disdain). Crass folly!—a woman utterly
unknown, who came heralded by the roar of wind and the rush of rain—a
creature born of the tempest, with flame in her eyes and hair, and fire
in the scarlet of her mouth; a fierce, passionate being, given to hot
impulse—even to the taking of a man's life!
("But," said I, somewhat diffidently, "the fellow was a proved
scoundrel!")
FIRST VOICE (bellowing). Sophistry! sophistry! even supposing he was
the greatest of villains, does that make her less a murderess in intent?
MYSELF. Hum!
FIRST VOICE (roaring). Of course not! Again, can this woman even
faintly compare with your ideal of what a woman should be—this
shrew!—this termagant! Can a woman whose hand has the strength to
level a pistol, and whose mind the will to use it, be of a nature
gentle, clinging, sweet—
SECOND VOICE (sotto). And sticky!
FIRST VOICE (howling). Of course not!—preposterous!
(Hereupon, finding no answer, I strode on through the alleys of the
wood; but, when I had gone some distance, I stopped again, for there
rushed over me the recollection of the tender pity of her eyes and the
gentle touch of her hand, as when she had bound up my hurts.
"Nevertheless," said I doggedly, "her face can grow more beautiful with
pity, and surely no woman's hand could be lighter or more gentle.")
FIRST VOICE (with withering contempt). Our Peter fellow is like to
become a preposterous ass.
(But, unheeding, I thrust my hand into my breast, and drew out a small
handful of cambric, whence came a faint perfume of violets. And,
closing my eyes, it seemed that she was kneeling before me, her arms
about my neck, as when she had bound this handkerchief about my
bleeding temples.
"Truly," said I, "for that one sweet act alone, a woman might be worth
dying for!")
SECOND VOICE. Or better still—living for!
FIRST VOICE (in high indignation). Balderdash, Sir!—sentimental
balderdash!
SECOND VOICE. A truth incontrovertible!
("Folly!" said I, and threw the handkerchief from me. But next moment,
moved by a sudden impulse, I stooped and picked it up again.)
FIRST VOICE. Our Peter fellow is becoming the fool of fools!
MYSELF. No, of that there is not the slightest fear, because—she
is—gone.
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