It was at this time, too, that I began to be haunted by the thing above
the door—the rusty staple upon which a man had choked out his wretched
life sixty and six years ago; a wanderer, a lonely man, perhaps
acquainted with misery or haunted by remorse, one who had suffered
much and long—even as I—but who had eventually escaped it all—even
as I might do. Thus I would sit, chin in hand, staring up at this
staple until the light failed, and sometimes, in the dead of night, I
would steal softly there to touch it with my finger.
Looking back on all this, it seems that I came very near losing my
reason, for I had then by no means recovered from Black George's fist,
and indeed even now I am at times not wholly free from its effect.
My sleep, too, was often broken and troubled with wild dreams, so that
bed became a place of horror, and, rising, I would sit before the empty
hearth, a candle guttering at my elbow, and think of Charmian until I
would fancy I heard the rustle of her garments behind me, and start up,
trembling and breathless; at such times the tap of a blown leaf against
the lattice would fill me with a fever of hope and expectation. Often
and often her soft laugh stole to me in the gurgle of the brook, and
she would call to me in the deep night silences in a voice very sweet,
and faint, and far away. Then I would plunge out into the dark, and
lift my hands to the stars that winked upon my agony, and journey on
through a desolate world, to return with the dawn, weary and despondent.
It was after one of these wild night expeditions that I sat beneath a
tree, watching the sunrise. And yet I think I must have dozed, for I
was startled by a voice close above me, and, glancing up, I recognized
the little Preacher. As our eyes met he immediately took the pipe from
his lips, and made as though to cram it into his pocket.
"Though, indeed, it is empty!" he explained, as though I had spoken.
"Old habits cling to one, young sir, and my pipe, here, has been the
friend of my solitude these many years, and I cannot bear to turn my
back upon it yet, so I carry it with me still, and sometimes, when at
all thoughtful, I find it between my lips. But though the flesh, as you
see, is very weak, I hope, in time, to forego even this," and he
sighed, shaking his head in gentle deprecation of himself. "But you
look pale—haggard," he went on; "you are ill, young sir!"
"No, no," said I, springing to my feet; "look at this arm, is it the
arm of a sick man? No, no—I am well enough, but what of him we found
in the ditch, you and I—the miserable creature who lay bubbling in the
grass?"
"He has been very near death, sir—indeed his days are numbered, I
think, yet he is better, for the time being, and last night declared
his intention of leaving the shelter of my humble roof and setting
forth upon his mission."
"His mission, sir?"
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