Brothers -- Fiction; Didactic fiction; Fathers and sons -- Fiction; Russia -- Social life and customs -- 1533-1917 -- Fiction
Our evenings, one after another, were spent in such stirring and
fervent talk. I gave up society and visited my neighbors much less
frequently. Besides, my vogue was somewhat over. I say this, not as
blame, for they still loved me and treated me good-humoredly, but
there’s no denying that fashion is a great power in society. I began to
regard my mysterious visitor with admiration, for besides enjoying his
intelligence, I began to perceive that he was brooding over some plan
in his heart, and was preparing himself perhaps for a great deed.
Perhaps he liked my not showing curiosity about his secret, not seeking
to discover it by direct question nor by insinuation. But I noticed at
last, that he seemed to show signs of wanting to tell me something.
This had become quite evident, indeed, about a month after he first
began to visit me.
“Do you know,” he said to me once, “that people are very inquisitive
about us in the town and wonder why I come to see you so often. But let
them wonder, for _soon all will be explained_.”
Sometimes an extraordinary agitation would come over him, and almost
always on such occasions he would get up and go away. Sometimes he
would fix a long piercing look upon me, and I thought, “He will say
something directly now.” But he would suddenly begin talking of
something ordinary and familiar. He often complained of headache too.
One day, quite unexpectedly indeed, after he had been talking with
great fervor a long time, I saw him suddenly turn pale, and his face
worked convulsively, while he stared persistently at me.
“What’s the matter?” I said; “do you feel ill?”—he had just been
complaining of headache.
“I ... do you know ... I murdered some one.”
He said this and smiled with a face as white as chalk. “Why is it he is
smiling?” The thought flashed through my mind before I realized
anything else. I too turned pale.
“What are you saying?” I cried.
“You see,” he said, with a pale smile, “how much it has cost me to say
the first word. Now I have said it, I feel I’ve taken the first step
and shall go on.”
For a long while I could not believe him, and I did not believe him at
that time, but only after he had been to see me three days running and
told me all about it. I thought he was mad, but ended by being
convinced, to my great grief and amazement. His crime was a great and
terrible one.
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