Catholics -- United States -- Fiction; Love stories; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
Cis went into a pew close to the door, and from habit, but without
consciousness of her action, knelt and made the sign of the cross
because she had just come into church. She had long ago fallen into the
way of thus kneeling on entering, and, first of all prayers, repeating
the Act of Contrition.
Now she began slowly, without knowing what she said, to whisper: “In
the Name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost. O my
God, I am heartily sorry that--” Her lips ceased moving; she could go
no farther. Heartily sorry--for what?
Rodney Moore had a living wife; he was unhappy about it. So was she.
She was sorry that this was so. There was that nice apartment which
he had shown her, and those chairs; one was the chair for the lady of
the house. What hurt her so? Was it her head? It did not seem to her
that she had brought it with her, yet she felt a terrible pain; it
seemed to be in her head. What was it she had to think about? Rodney
was not dead. Why did she feel as though he were dead? Or was it that
there was no Rodney? He had a wife, alive. He had none, so he had
said, but if she were alive? He must have forgotten, poor Rodney, that
when one’s wife is alive--there she is: alive! Still the wife. She was
not thinking, and she had come here to think; it was quiet, deeply,
peacefully quiet, and somehow quieting, as well. She would be able to
think here.
Cis knelt staring at the altar, her face so white that an old woman,
entering, turned as if to speak to her, then changed her mind and
went on, shaking her head pityingly, saying to herself: “God pity and
help her, the poor young creature!” as she ducked her edition of a
genuflection toward the altar and knelt in a pew, rattling big brown
rosary beads, supplemented by several large medals, on the back of the
pew against which she rested her gnarled hands.
Was it that the benison was effective? It was not long before the
strange submergence of her conscious self which had overwhelmed Cicely
on hearing Rodney’s knell of her joy, broke and rolled back, leaving
her soul bare to an agony that saw only too clearly, grasped only too
acutely exactly what had befallen her.
She was promised to marry within four weeks a man whose wife was still
alive!
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