Catholics -- United States -- Fiction; Love stories; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
Mr. Lucas frowned angrily.
“It’s that abominable Roman tyranny again,” he cried. “How in the name
of all that’s sane do those priests get hold of minds the way they do?
You poor little victim of man-made laws, posing for Divine ones, have
you wrecked your life and a man’s life for this nonsense?”
“No, Mr. Lucas,” said Cis with a weary little gasp for breath, but not
in the least shaken. “You are ever so much wiser than I, but I know
that is not true. Our Lord Himself said that a divorced person could
not be married, and what can you do when He tells you anything? I think
I can see why it has to be, because outside the Catholic Church people
keep going in and out of marriages till you’d think they’d be dizzy.
And then there are the children. No, Mr. Lucas, it’s all right, even
though it hurts. And, anyway, how could I turn my back on the Church?
God’s there.”
“You told me once that you were--what’s their term for it?--an
indifferent Catholic. That you weren’t devout like some friend of
yours, or was it Jeanette Lucas? Yet you make the choice of your Church
instead of your happiness! I see what it has cost you; your face
betrays your suffering. You, who could not stand firm against your
lover’s pleading to you to put him in the way of making money, only of
making money; who did violence to your hatred of not ‘being square,’
as you put it, you leave him, throw him over, infuriate him, wound his
pride, as well as his love of you--for no man would do less than curse
a woman for thus failing him after he had let her have the chance to
choose--all for an idea; for allegiance to a system; to keep within
a Church which was not especially dear to you! And this when the laws
of your country would justify your choosing the man, would place their
seal upon your position in society as his wife! My heavens, Cicely
Adair, what is it, what can it be that can so mold you into a Christian
martyr, singing as the wild beasts rend her?”
Mr. Lucas sat erect, frowning heavily, his eyes flashing, for
the problem before him stirred him to his depths. He had already
encountered it in his brother’s conduct; he resisted the one
explanation of it which his reason presented to him.
Cis smiled her pitiful, funny little shadow of her normal bright,
amused smile, and looked up at Mr. Lucas, saying:
“I’m not singing, Mr. Lucas, not so you’d notice it! But I wouldn’t
want the wild beasts to go off and lie down, not if it would turn me
back. You see, it’s quite easy. I mean to understand. I’ve got to stand
by, if I want God to stand by me, and what should I do if He didn’t?
And that’s not all of it. I love Rod, but God is different; you can’t
get on without Him. I think He’ll teach me to get on without Rod,
somehow. I suppose I had more faith than I knew I had. It’s all faith,
isn’t it, Mr. Lucas?”
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