Catholics -- United States -- Fiction; Love stories; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
Cis visited Jeanette Lucas often; the two girls were strongly drawn to
each other; their friendship deepened and grew. Jeanette had come out
of her trial with a darkened outlook upon life. Cis had come out of
her struggle and loss undismayed, strengthened, in a sense refreshed,
reaping the reward of her choice. Although there were moments when
a simple tune whistled by a boy in the street, a phrase, a half
resemblance stabbed her with pain, yet Cis was able truthfully to tell
Nan that she was happy. By temperament and will she was framed to look
forward, not back. Her optimistic courage was inspiring to Jeanette;
she grew fond of Cis and turned to her as to a tonic, a summons to do
her best also.
Nan was submerged in her house, in its master and little Matt. She paid
Cis her old loving worship, raised to an incalculable degree by her
reverence for Cis as for one who had given her proofs, but there was
no time in any day to spare for anyone but Joe and Matt. Nan and Cis
met in the baby more intimately, more frequently than in each other,
outside this powerful little downy link.
To her amazement, Cis discovered herself a baby worshiper; she had
not known that she was a member of that order, in one of its highest
degrees.
Her godson was to her hardly less adorable than to his mother. She hung
over him, absorbing his violet-scented, milky sweetness as the odor
of a flower; brooding over the miracle of his tiny features, their
curious twistings, the crooked smile of his sucked-in lips; the funny
thrusts of his absurdities of hands, doubled into fists and taking her
in the eye, or letting her mumble them with kisses that inclosed the
wrinkles of his wrists, the blue-blue veins traced below the whiteness
of the backs of those belligerent little hands. When he looked into her
eyes and laughed aloud, clutching her wealth of hair, Cis was elated,
humbled, flattered. In baby Matt she found a new joy that revealed her
to herself; she knew now what she had renounced when she had gone out
of that pretty apartment, leaving Rodney there amid the ruins of his
hopes and hers. Not for an instant did she regret, turn back in thought
upon her right course, but she understood the void which ached in her,
and often the baby’s fine white tiny yoke was damp when his godmother
raised her face from it, while he was gurgling with laughter because
she had burrowed into his neck, tickling him.
Cis boarded with Nan. “Of course you couldn’t so much as think of
living anywhere else, as long as I have room for you and want you so
dreadfully! Besides, there’s baby!” Nan had said, and there was nothing
to bring against her brief, convincing arguments.
“It isn’t as though I were going to be here permanently,” Cis said. “I
think no one ought permanently to live with a married friend, but just
till I go back to Beaconhite--or whatever I do next--I suppose it won’t
be too hard on you, Mrs. Nan!”
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