Catholics -- United States -- Fiction; Love stories; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
“Except me!” cried Rodney bitterly. “You’re my wife, or as good as
that, with all yourself pledged to me, yet when you can serve me,
merely by a tiny nod when I ask: ‘Cis, shall I buy that stock?’ you are
stiff-necked and indifferent; you won’t by the tiny inclination of
your head help me upon my feet! Shame, Cicely Adair! It’s not what I
call love; it’s not what I counted on in you! I thought you’d die for
me, if need were! It’s not the money, not first! You fail me, Cis; you
refuse to help me!”
“Oh, Rod, oh, Rod!” cried Cis in torture. “You know, you know it’s all
false! I--can’t! Oh, I will, I will! Oh, Rod, don’t look like that, not
at me; not at Cis! I’ll die for you, I will! I shall be dead if I’m no
longer trustworthy, but I’d die for you! Buy the stock. The franchise
is decided; it is going through! Oh, Rod, Rod! Oh, what have I done!”
“Right, my precious, my darling! Anyone would say you had done right.
No one will be the worse for it, and I’ll be far, far better! We’ll be
better! Bless you, my Holly girl, my brave, true, loyal Holly girl!”
cried Rodney triumphantly.
“Don’t call me loyal!” Cis gasped. “And plan so I’ll never profit by
that money. Rodney, it is heaven to love you, but, oh, it can be hell
to have anyone so necessary to you that everything goes down before the
dread of paining him!”
Rodney left Cis on the steps of Mrs. Wallace’s house, looking wan and
pale, grief and terror in her wide eyes, but he did not pity her. He
was sure that she would soon throw off what he considered her morbid
exaggeration of her failure to keep her employers’ secret.
“Fancy her not telling me! The silly darling!” Rodney thought, striding
away, whistling loudly the air with which he serenaded Cis when
he passed down her street at night; he was sure that she was still
standing within the open door; listening to his receding steps and his
merry whistling.
“I’ve got her where I want her! Exactly where I I want her! She’d
throw over this world, and the next, and everything in them for me!
There’s not another like her; all mad love for me, yet crystal-clear
in soul! Oh, _soul_! It’s not that; it’s her honesty, her truth, her
selflessness! I can’t seem to face fooling her; I guess I’ll have to
lay the cards on the table in front of her, before Christmas, too! I
don’t want to fool Cis Adair! And there’s not the slightest risk in
doing it, not now! Probably there never was. She’s no doddering slave
of ignorant prejudice! Besides, I’ve got her where I want her; to-day
proved that! Dandy good thing it happened; tested her, gave me pluck
to start in square with her, and honesty’s the only policy with Cis,
that’s sure! Just where I want her! My splendid girl! It hurt, but she
stood pat! Conscience won’t make a coward of brave Cis! And afterward
I’ll know how to salve the conscience if it happens to smart a little.
After Christmas I’ll be her conscience! Just where I want her, that
gorgeous Cis of mine!”
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