Now, then, after such anxiety, alarm, and hardship, Nero had reached a
quiet rural asylum. But for the unfortunate concurrence of his horse's
alarm with the passing of the soldier, he might perhaps have counted on
a respite of a day or two in this noiseless and obscure abode. But what
a habitation for him who was yet ruler of the world in the eye of law,
and even _de facto_ was so, had any fatal accident befallen his aged
competitor! The room in which (as the one most removed from notice and
suspicion) he had secreted himself, was a cella, or little sleeping
closet of a slave, furnished only with a miserable pallet and a coarse
rug. Here lay the founder and possessor of the Golden House, too happy
if he might hope for the peaceable possession even of this miserable
crypt. But that, he knew too well, was impossible. A rival pretender to
the empire was like the plague of fire--as dangerous in the shape of
a single spark left unextinguished, as in that of a prosperous
conflagration. But a few brief sands yet remained to run in the
emperor's hour-glass; much variety of degradation or suffering seemed
scarcely within the possibilities of his situation, or within the
compass of the time. Yet, as though Providence had decreed that
his humiliation should pass through every shape, and speak by every
expression which came home to his understanding, or was intelligible
to his senses, even in these few moments he was attacked by hunger and
thirst. No other bread could be obtained (or, perhaps, if the emperor's
presence were concealed from the household, it was not safe to raise
suspicion by calling for better) than that which was ordinarily given
to slaves, coarse, black, and, to a palate so luxurious, doubtless
disgusting. This accordingly he rejected; but a little tepid water
he drank. After which, with the haste of one who fears that he may be
prematurely interrupted, but otherwise, with all the reluctance which
we may imagine, and which his streaming tears proclaimed, he addressed
himself to the last labor in which he supposed himself to have any
interest on this earth--that of digging a grave. Measuring a space
adjusted to the proportions of his person, he inquired anxiously for
any loose fragments of marble, such as might suffice to line it. He
requested also to be furnished with wood and water, as the materials
for the last sepulchral rites. And these labors were accompanied, or
continually interrupted by tears and lamentations, or by passionate
ejaculations on the blindness of fortune, in suffering so divine an
artist to be thus violently snatched away, and on the calamitous fate of
musical science, which then stood on the brink of so dire an eclipse. In
these moments he was most truly in an _agony_, according to the original
meaning of that word; for the conflict was great between two master
principles of his nature: on the one hand, he clung with the weakness of
a girl to life, even in that miserable shape to which it had now sunk;
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