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But the strong coffee had gone to Magdalena's head, and she cared little
what became of her. Nevertheless, a moment later she was shrieking and
struggling in the arms of a big golden-bearded Russian. She barely
grasped the sense of what followed. There was a volley of screams and
laughter; the man was cursing and gripping her with the arms of a
grizzly. Then there was a flash of knives, and she was stumbling
headlong through the crowd, hooted at and buffeted. But no one attempted
to stop her, for a fight with bowie-knives was more interesting than a
sallow-faced girl who had happened upon foreign territory. She ran up a
dark side-street, and then, as her breath gave out and forced her to
moderate her pace, she glanced repeatedly over her shoulder. No one was
in pursuit, but it was some moments before she realised that it was not
relief she experienced, but something akin to disappointment. She was in
the ugliest mood of which her nature was capable, and that was saying
much. With one exception, better forgotten, this blond ruffian who had
insulted her was the only man who had ever desired her; doubtless, she
reflected bitterly, even Trennahan might be excepted. And when an
unprepossessing woman of starved affections and implacably controlled
passions sees desire in the eyes of a man for the first time, her vanity
of sex responds, if her passions do not.
She half turned back and stood looking down the hill to the brilliant
noisy street.
Why should I not go back and live with him, and disappear from a world
which takes no interest in me, and in which I am no earthly use? she
thought. And no life could be worse than mine, nor more immoral, for
that matter. I have never fulfilled a single one of the conditions for
which woman was born, and I'd be more normal as that man's mistress, and
less unhappy even if he beat me, which he probably would, than living
the life of a blind mole underground.
Then she wondered who her deliverer was, and wondered if he too had
wanted her. Some portion of the blackness in her soul receded suddenly,
and she smiled and trembled slightly. Involuntarily her back
straightened, and she lifted her head. But with the sudden rush of
sexual pride the magnetism of its creators receded, and she turned her
back on the flare below and continued to mount the hill. In a moment she
turned into a badly lighted alley thinly peopled. Here there was but a
tinkle of music, and it came from the guitar. Fat old women with black
shawls pinned about their heads sat on the doorsteps of ramshackle
houses talking to men whose flannel shirts revealed hairy chests. The
women looked stupid, the men weather-beaten, but the prevailing
expression was good-natured. In the middle of the street was a tamale
stand surrounded by patrons. The aroma of highly seasoned cooking came
from a restaurant at the foot of a rickety flight of steps. Every
dilapidated window had its flower-box.
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