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Magdalena, who loved Nature and had yielded to its influence many times
in her life, made a deliberate attempt to absorb the peace and beauty of
the night into her own scarred and troubled soul. But she gave up the
attempt in a few moments. The fierceness of her mood had passed, and
some of its blackness, but she was still bitter and hopeless. There was
nothing to do but to face the problem of her life, and thinking was
easier on these altitudes, where the air was fresh and salt, and the
stars seemed close, than in the ill-ventilated prison which she called
her home. She determined to remain until morning and to restore her
brain to its normal condition, if possible.
She looked back upon the mental and moral inertia into which she had
sunken during the past month, and its sequence of morbid and criminal
instinct, with terror and horror. Before an hour had passed, she had
herself in hand once more, for she had deliberately forced herself to
face her own soul, and she believed that she could put her character
together again and accept the future without further luxation or
debility of will. But she made no attempt to close her eyes to the ugly
fact that in that future of interminable years there were only two small
stars of hope; and it required an effort of imagination to drag them
above the horizon,--her father's death and the return of Trennahan. Her
father belonged to a long-lived race, and Trennahan during an absence of
three years and some months had given no indication that he remembered
her existence; moreover, he had gone into exile for love of another
woman. But without the faint white twinkle of those stars the future
would be not a blank, but an infernal abyss, which Magdalena, without
the society of her kind, without talent, without occupation, without
religion, refused to contemplate. And she had all a woman's capacity for
fooling herself with the will-o'-the-wisps of the imagination.
Her eyes had been clear and her logic relentless so long as the man had
been within sight and touch, but his absence, combined with his abrupt
and final eviction from the toils of the other woman, had lifted him
from practical life into the realms of the imagination; in other words,
he was no longer so much a man as an ideal,--a soul whom her own soul
was free to await or pursue in that inner world where realities are
bodiless and forgotten.
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