The door opened and Grace came in. Looking at her he realised that she
would never understand the struggle through which he had been
timorously wading, and saw that she was further away from him than she
had ever been before. He blamed her too. She had had no right to refuse
that man to Maggie. Had she allowed Maggie to see him none of this
might have occurred. The man was a forger and would, had he lived, have
gone to prison, but there would not then have been the same open
scandal. No, he blamed Grace. It might be that their old absolutely
confident intimacy would never be renewed. He felt cold and lonely. He
bent forward, putting some coal on the fire, breaking it up into a
cheerful blaze. Then he looked up at her, and his heart was touched.
She looked to-day an old woman. Her hair was untidy and her face was
dull grey in colour. Her eyes moved restlessly round the room,
wandering from picture to picture, from the mantelpiece to the chairs,
from the chairs to the book-shelves, as though she sought in the sight
of these well-remembered things some defence and security.
"Is your head better?" he asked her, not meeting her eyes, because the
dull pain in them disturbed him.
"Not much," she said. "It's very bad, my head. I've taken aspirin. I
didn't eat anything yesterday. Nothing at all except some bread and
milk, and very little of that ... I couldn't finish it. I felt I'd be
sick. I said to Emily, 'Emily, if I eat any more of that I'll be sick,'
and Emily advised me not to touch it. What I mean is that if I'd eaten
any more I'd have been really sick--at least that's what I felt like."
Her restless eyes came suddenly to a jerking pause as though some one
had caught and gripped them. She was suddenly dramatic. "Oh. Paul, what
are we going to do?" she cried.
Paul was irritated by that. He hated to be asked direct questions as to
policy.
"What do you mean what are we going to do?" he asked.
"Why, about this--about everything. We shall have to leave Skeaton, you
know. Fancy what people are saying!"
Suddenly, as though the thought of the scandal was too much for her,
her knees gave way and she flopped into a chair.
"Well, let them say!" he answered vigorously. "Grace, you're making too
much of all this. You'll be ill if you aren't careful. Pull yourself
together." "Of course we've got to go," she answered. "If you think
that we can go on living here after all that's happened--"
"Well, why not?" he interrupted. "We haven't done anything. It's only--"
"I know what you're going to say." (It was one of Grace's most
irritating habits that she finished other people's sentences for them
in a way that they had not intended) "that if they look at it properly
they'll see that it wasn't our fault. But will they look at it
properly? Of course they won't. You know what cats they are. They're
only waiting for a chance. What I mean is that this is just the chance
they've been waiting for."
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