They, he and his father, drove in a cab to the Chapel. Of what followed
then he was now less aware. He remembered that he was in a small room
with two men, that they all took off their clothes (he remembered that
one man, very stout and red, looked funny without his clothes), that
they put on long white night-shirts, that his was too long for him and
that he tripped over it, that they all three walked down the centre of
the Chapel, which was filled with eyes, mouths and boots, and that he
was very conscious of his toe-nails, which had never been exposed in
public before, that they came to a round stone place filled with water
and into this after the two men he was dipped, that he didn't scream
from the coldness, of the water although he wanted to, that he was
wrapped in a blanket and finally carried home in an ecstasy of triumph.
What happiness followed! The vitality of it swept down upon him now, so
that he seemed never to have lived since then. He was the chosen of God
and every one knew it. What a little prig and yet how simple it had all
been, without any consciousness of insincerity or acting on his part.
God had chosen him and there he was, for ever and ever safe and happy.
It was not only that he was assured that when the moment arrived he
would have, in Heaven, a "good time"--it was that he was greatly
exalted, so that he gave his twopence a week pocket-money to his
school-fellows, never pulled Amy's hair, never teased his mother's
canary. He had been aware, young though he was, of another life. He
prayed and prayed, he went to an endless succession of services and
meetings. There was Mr. Bates, one of the leading brethren then, who
loved him and spoilt him ... above all, through and beyond it all,
there was his father, who adored him and whom he adored.
That adoration--of God, of his father, of life itself! Was it possible
that a small boy, normal and ordinary enough in other ways, could feel
so intensely such passions?
The dark room was crowding him with figures and scenes. A whole world
that he had thought dead and withered was beating--urgently,
insistently, upon his consciousness.
In another instant he did not know what surrender, what acknowledgement
he might have made. It seemed to him that nothing in life was worth
while save to receive again, in some fashion, that vitality that he had
once known.
The door was flung open; a stream of light struck the dark; the
shadows, memories, fled, helter-skelter, like crackling smoke into the
air.
Amy stood in the doorway, blinking at him, scowling. He knew, for some
undefined reason, that he could not meet his father's eyes. He jumped
up and walked to the window.
CHAPTER II
EXPECTATION
Maggie developed marvellously during her first weeks in London. It
could not truthfully be said that her aunts gave her great opportunity
for development; so far as they were concerned she might as well have
been back in the green seclusion of St. Dreots.
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