Brittany (France) -- Fiction; France -- History -- Medieval period, 987-1515 -- Fiction; Historical fiction; Women -- Fiction
“Meseemeth that, since the day of Gerault’s death, a part of me hath
been asleep. Save when, on the night of his home-coming, I lay beside
his body and touched again his hair and his eyes—”
“Holy God! Thou couldst lie beside the dead!”
“Ah, was it not Gerault come home to me—seeming as if he slept? Since
that time, and the night that followed it, I say, I have not wept for
him. Mine eyes are dry. There is sometimes a fire in them; but the tears
never come. And my heart ofttimes burns, and yet I do not very bitterly
grieve. I know not why, but my sorrow hath not been all that I should
have made it. I have been soothed with shadows. I have found great
comfort in yon rolling sea. And then there is also the child,—Gerault’s
son,—the Lord of Crépuscule.”
“Yes, the child! Oh, I know how thou lovest him—I know!”
“Thou knowest? How?”
“Methinks, Lenore, I understand the mother-love. How should I have
praised God had he deemed me also worthy of it! But I was not. I know
well ’twas a vain desire. But, oh, to hold in mine arms a little one, a
babe, and to know it for mine own! Wouldst not deliver up thy soul for
that, Lenore?”
Lenore looked at her with a vague little smile. “Perhaps; I do not know.
My babe must carry on his father’s name, and so I love him. Yea, I will
bear any suffering so that he come into the world; for Gerault said to
me long since that such must be my duty and my great joy. He spake
somewhat as you do. Yet I know not that eagerness thou speakest of.”
Laure examined the ethereal figure lying before her with new curiosity;
and under the gaze of the calm, deep-hued eyes her own were kindled with
a brighter gleam. “Hast thou not loved, Lenore?” she asked. “Knowest
thou nothing of the joy of living, the two in one, united by divine
fire? Dost thou not worship God for the reason that there is now in thee
a double soul? Wake! Wake from thy dream-life! Suffer! For out of
suffering, great joy will come upon thee!”
As she met Laure’s look, a new light burned in Lenore’s eyes, and the
other saw her quiver under those words. Finally, freeing her gaze, she
said very softly: “I would not wake. How, indeed, should I live, if I
roused myself? Life and love and the world are hidden away behind the
far hills of Rennes. Here I must dwell forever in the twilight. So let
me dream! Ah, Laure, thou too, thou too wilt come to it. The fever may
burn within thee still, but time will cool it. Tell me, Laure,” she
added, smitten with a sudden curiosity that was foreign to her usual
self, “tell me, Laure, how didst thou find courage to run out from thy
dreams in the priory into life with Flammecœur, the trouvère?”
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