You may possibly be blaming Arthur Channing for meeting this trouble
in so sad a spirit. Were such an accusation cast unjustly upon you,
you would throw it off impatiently, and stand up for yourself and your
innocence in the broad light of day. Even were you debarred, as he was,
from speaking out the whole truth, you would never be cast down to that
desponding depth, and thereby give a colouring to the doubt cast upon
you. Are you thinking this? But you must remember that it was not
for _himself_ that Arthur was so weighed down. Had he possessed no
conception as to how the note went, he would have met the charge very
differently, bearing himself bravely, and flinging their suspicion to
the winds. “You people cannot think _me_ guilty,” he might have said;
“my whole previous life is a refutation to the charge.” He would have
held up his head and heart cheerfully; waiting, and looking for the time
when elucidation should come.
No; his grief, his despondency were felt for Hamish. If Arthur Channing
had cherished faith in one living being more than in another, it was in
his elder brother. He loved him with a lasting love, he revered him as
few revere a brother; and the shock was great. He would far rather have
fallen down to guilt himself, than that Hamish should have fallen. Tom
Channing had said, with reference to Arthur, that, if he were guilty,
he should never believe in anything again; they might tell him that
the cathedral was a myth, and not a cathedral, and he should not be
surprised. This sort of feeling had come over Arthur. It had disturbed
his faith in honour and goodness--it had almost disgusted him with the
world. Arthur Channing is not the only one who has found his faith in
fellow-men rudely shaken.
And yet, the first shock over, his mind was busy finding excuses for
him. He knew that Hamish had not erred from any base self-gratification,
but from love. You may be inclined to think this a contradiction, for
all such promptings to crime must be base. Of course they are; but as
the motives differ, so do the degrees. As surely as though the whole
matter had been laid before him, felt Arthur, Hamish had been driven
to it in his desperate need, to save his father’s position, and the
family’s means of support. He felt that, had Hamish alone been in
question, he would not have appropriated a pin that was not his, to save
himself from arrest: what he had done he had done in love. Arthur gave
him credit for another thing--that he had never cast a glance to the
possibility of suspicion falling on Arthur; the post-office would
receive credit for the loss. Nothing more tangible than that wide field,
where they might hunt for the supposed thief until they were tired.
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