But it _was_ dark; dark in many ways, and Constance was soon to be
reminded again of it forcibly. She had taken her seat at the tea-table,
when Tom came in. He looked flushed--stern; and he flung his Gradus,
and one or two other books in a heap, on the side table, with more force
than was necessary; and himself into a chair, ditto.
“Constance, I shall leave the school!”
Constance, in her dismay, dropped the sugar-tongs into the sugar. “What,
Tom?”
“I shall leave the school!” he repeated, his tone as fiery as his face.
“I wouldn’t stop in it another month, if I were bribed with gold. Things
are getting too bad there.”
“Oh, Tom, Tom! Is this your endurance?”
“Endurance!” he exclaimed. “That’s a nice word in theory, Constance; but
just you try it in practice! Who has endured, if I have not? I thought
I’d go on and endure it, as you say; at any rate, until papa came home.
But I can’t--I can’t!”
“What has happened more than usual?” inquired Hamish.
“It gets worse and worse,” said Tom, turning his blazing face upon his
brother. “I wouldn’t wish a dog to live the life that I live in the
college school. They call me a felon, and treat me as one; they send
me to Coventry; they won’t acknowledge me as one of their seniors. My
position is unbearable.”
“Live it down, Tom,” said Hamish quietly.
“Haven’t I been trying to live it down?” returned the boy, suppressing
his emotion. “It has lasted now these two months, and I have borne it
daily. At the time of Charley’s loss I was treated better for a day
or two, but that has worn away. It is of no use your looking at me
reproachfully, Constance; I must complain. What other boy in the world
has ever been put down as I? I was head of the school, next to Gaunt;
looking forward to be the head; and what am I now? The seniorship
taken from me in shame; Huntley exalted to my place; my chance of the
exhibition gone--”
“Huntley does not take the exhibition,” interrupted Constance.
“But Yorke will. _I_ shan’t be allowed to take it. Now I know it,
Constance, and the school knows it. Let a fellow once go down, and he’s
kept down: every dog has a fling at him. The seniorship’s gone, the
exhibition is going. I might bear that tamely, you may say; and of
course I might, for they are negative evils; but what I can’t and won’t
bear, are the insults of every-day life. Only this afternoon they--”
Tom stopped, for his feelings were choking him; and the complaint he was
about to narrate was never spoken. Before he had recovered breath and
calmness, Arthur entered and took his seat at the tea-table. Poor Tom,
allowing one of his unfortunate explosions of temper to get the better
of him, sprang from his chair and burst forth with a passionate reproach
to Arthur, whom he regarded as the author of all the ill.
“Why did you do it? Why did you bring this disgrace upon us? But for
you, I should not have lost caste in the school.”
“Tom!” interposed Hamish, in a severe tone.
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