"’Vera,’ he said, bending over me, ’have you not seen--do you not know
that I love you? Love you so deeply that, had it been possible, I
should long ago have torn myself away from the scene of temptation; but
oh! my love, I could not! I have striven to hide my feelings so that
you might never know, and I, fool that I am! believed it was possible.
All I asked was to be near you, to worship you; and what is the result?
You will now despise and hate me. Had you loved your husband it would
have been different, for till I knew that he had treated you badly--till
I felt that you were in the sight of heaven not really his wife--I only
admired you, and thought what a fortunate man he must be. But when you
trusted me with this sorrow, a new feeling sprang up--a fire that could
not be quenched. Oh, I know how vile I must seem in thus taking
advantage of your confidence. Have I not thought over it day and night,
saying to myself it is her very loneliness which should make the thought
of love impossible! But I deceived myself with that old and
oft-repeated deception of friendship, of self-renunciation, of living
for you. Oh, Vera, I could not help it. If you could only know how
sweet, how lovely you are, you would forgive.’
"He knelt down and kissed me on the forehead; then, apparently losing
all further power of control, before I could decide what to say or do,
he put his arm round me and kissed me on the lips and on the eyes. I
leapt up, terrified by his passion, and conscious of a strange mixture
of anger and pride: anger that he should have dared thus to insult me;
pride that my beauty should so far overcome his reserve and honour.
"’Captain Frint!’ I said, trembling so that I could hardly speak, ’I
hate you--hate you! I thought you were a man to be trusted. I hope we
shall never meet again.’
"He stood before me, looking on the ground. His face was deadly pale;
his features were drawn and pinched as though he were suffering from
acute bodily pain.
"’You are right,’ he said at last, though in so low a tone that I could
barely catch the words. ’I am a brute--the vilest of men! There is no
excuse, so I will not make things worse by speaking. The only thing
that is possible I will do. You shall not see me again after to-day.’
"As he spoke I could hear the strange sound which his parched lips made
while he stammered out the words. When he had finished, for a moment I
thought he would have fainted, but after a pause he seemed to recover
somewhat, and continued--
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