"It is not that strength to resist the evil is sent as an answer to the
prayer, but that the temptation is utterly removed, the force of the
body being, as it were, for the time annihilated; so at least have I
ever found it, and so it proved in this case. I could look now at my
companion without fear, and love her with a love that I knew was
innocent. The very remembrance of my past thoughts filled me with a
wondering horror. Summoning all my strength of will, I strove to recall
to her mind the page which had been obliterated, and to bring back her
natural feeling towards Vancome, which had changed to hatred.
"Whilst doing this, I repeated the story, hoping thereby to assist her
memory, but, from a then unknown reason, I failed utterly, and the only
impression which she formed was that I had gone mad. When I tried to
take her hand in mine so as to gain more influence over her will, she
rose and left me.
"I could see her in the distance evidently getting ready to start for
home. I dared not follow her, knowing that had I done so, she would in
her fear have run bare-headed and bare-footed over the moor, rather than
let me come near her.
"She, however, seemed undecided in her mind, and for the first time that
day I began to be conscious of her thoughts. Seeing that I had made no
attempt to follow her, or to exhibit any further signs of insanity, the
sudden fear had evidently diminished, and she began to fancy that
probably I had only been fooling her for the pleasure of seeing if she
could be made to believe the story. At length, being satisfied that
this was the explanation, she began to walk slowly towards the place
where I was sitting, and then called to me, saying that it was time to
go back. I answered that I was quite ready, but that it seemed a pity
to go so soon. My voice still further reassuring her, she came and
looked over the rock, saying--
"’So you thought you could take me in with that rubbish, did you?’
"’Well,’ I replied, ’that was my intention, but as it’s evidently of no
use, I must give in. Your imagination is not so easily influenced as I
thought.’
"’I should think not,’ she said. ’But you acted very well, and I really
thought for the moment you had gone mad. It was very nasty of you to
spoil our happy day in that manner. I suppose you did it in revenge.’
"’No, I did not, dear,’ I answered. ’But come and sit down. We will
say no more about it.’
"She did as I asked her, protesting all the while that I was a brute;
but in five minutes I had managed to change the subject, and to get her
to take my hand. Then without speaking I willed her to sleep. Slowly
she leant further back; her head sank down, and in less than a minute
she was quite unconscious.
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