“If any member of this community has one unfaithful thought of going
back to the outer world, I charge him to come to this altar now. But woe
to him through whom the offence cometh! Woe to him who turns back after
taking up the golden plough!”
John was kneeling in his place in the second row of the choir. The eyes
of the community were upon him. He hesitated a moment, then rose and
stepped up to the altar.
“My son,” said the Father, “it is not yet too late. I see your fate as
plainly as I see you now. Shall I tell you what it is? Can you bear to
hear it? I see you going out into a world which has nothing to satisfy
the cravings of your soul. I see you foredoomed to failure and suffering
and despair. I see you coming back to us within a year with a broken and
bleeding heart. I see you taking the vows of lifelong consecration. Can
you face that future?”
“I must.”
The Father drew a long breath. “It is inevitable,” he said; and, taking
a book from the altar, he read the awful service of the degradation:
_“By the authority of God Almighty, Father [Symbol: Patée], Son, and
Holy Ghost, and by our own authority, we, the members of the Society of
the Holy Gethsemane, do take away from thee the habit of our Order, and
depose and degrade and deprive thee of all rights and privileges in the
spiritual goods and prayers which, by the grace of God, are done among
us.”_
“Amen! Amen!” said the brothers.
During the reading of the service John had been kneeling. The Father
motioned to him to rise, and proceeded to remove the cord with which he
had bound him at his consecration. When this was done, he signalled to
Brother Andrew to take off the cassock.
The bell was tolled. The Father dropped on his knees. The brothers,
hoarse and husky, began to sing _In exitu Israel de Aegypto_. Their
heads were down, their voices seemed to come up out of the earth.
It was all over now. John Storm turned about, hardly able to see his
way. Brother Andrew went before him to open the door of the sacristy.
The lay brother was crying audibly.
The sun was still shining in the courtyard, and the birds were still
singing and rejoicing. The first thing of which John was conscious was
that the dog was licking his rigid fingers.
A moment later he was in the little covered passage to the street, and
Brother Andrew was opening the iron gate.
“Good-bye, my lad!”
He stretched out his hand, then remembered that he was an excommunicated
man, and tried to draw it back; but the lay brother had snatched at it
and lifted it to his lips.
The dog was following him into the street.
“Go back, old friend.”
He patted the old creature on the head, and Brother Andrew laid hold of
it by the loose skin at its neck. A hansom was waiting for him with his
trunk on the top.
“Victoria Square, Westminster,” he called. The cab was moving off, when
there was a growl and a lurch--the dog had broken away and was running
after it.
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