But John did not sit. He stood by the chair vacated by Felicity, and
kept beating his hat on the back of it.
“I have come to tell you, sir, that I wish to resign my curacy.”
The canon glanced up with a stealthy expression, and thought: “How
clever of him! To resign before he is told plainly that he has to
go--that is very clever.”
Then he said aloud: “I am sorry, very sorry. I'm always sorry to part
with my clergy. Still--you see I am entirely frank with you--I have
observed that you have not been comfortable of late, and I think you are
acting for the best. When do you wish to leave me?”
“As soon as convenient--as early as I can be spared.”
The canon smiled condescendingly. “That need not trouble you at all.
With a staff like mine, you see---- Of course, you are aware that I am
entitled to three months' notice?”
“Yes.”
“But I will waive it; I will not detain you. Have you seen your uncle on
the subject?”
“No.”
“When you do so please say that I always try to remove impediments
from a young man's path if he is uncomfortable--in the wrong place, for
example.”
“Thank you,” said John Storm, and then he hesitated a moment before
stepping to the door.
The canon rose and bowed affably. “Not an angry word,” he thought. “Who
shall say that blood does not count for something?”
“Believe me, my dear Storm,” he said aloud, “I shall always remember
with pride and pleasure our early connection. Perhaps I think you are
acting unwisely, even foolishly, but it will continue to be a source of
satisfaction to me that I was able to give you your first opportunity,
and if your next curacy should chance to be in London, I trust you will
allow us to maintain the acquaintance.”
John Storm's face was twitching and his pulses were beating violently,
but he was trying to control himself.
“Thank you,” he said; “but it is not very likely----”
“Don't say you are giving up Orders, dear Mr. Storm, or perhaps that you
are only leaving our church in order to unite yourself to another. Ah!
have I touched on a tender point? You must not be surprised that
rumours have been rife. We can not silence the tongues of busybodies
and mischief-makers, you know. And I confess, speaking as your spiritual
head and adviser, it would be a source of grief to me if a young
clergyman, who has eaten the bread of the Establishment, and my own as
well, were about to avow himself the subject and slave of an Italian
bishop.”
John Storm came back from the door.
“What you are saying, sir, requires that I should be plain spoken. In
giving up my curacy I am not leaving the Church of England; I am only
leaving you.”
“I am so glad, so relieved!”
“I am leaving you because I can not live with you any longer, because
the atmosphere you breathe is impossible to me, because your religion is
not my religion, or your God my God!”
“You surprise me. What have I done?”
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