All this, in the pause that had followed John’s question, had passed for
the thousandth time through Jill’s mind, bringing her inevitably once
more to the realisation of her duty to others. And when he pressed her
again, offering, not perhaps the penny for her thoughts, but an
equivalent, just as valuable as that most valuable of coins, the promise
of his eyes, she shook her head.
"Ah, but you were going to say something!" he pleaded.
"I was going to ask you," said she, "if you would take me to see your
people." She hesitated. "I--I want to have tea with them out of the
little blue and white cups with no handles. I want to go and buy lace
with the little old white-haired lady in the arcades."
He seized her hand so that she winced.
"You’ve not forgotten! You shall come this afternoon." And there, with
a smile, she left him, still standing by the silent image of St.
Anthony; and, gratitude being that part of prayer which belongs to the
heart and has nothing in common with delay, John knelt down again. When
Jill looked back over her shoulder, his head was buried in his hands.
The little old white-haired lady was waiting over the mid-day meal for
him when he returned. His father had taken his food and gone out again,
leaving her alone to keep John company. She was sitting patiently there
at the head of the table and, by the side of her empty plate, stood a
small bottle containing white pills, over which she hurriedly laid her
hand as he entered.
But clever as they are, in their cunning, childish ways, old people lose
all the superior craft of deceit. They go back to childhood when they
imagine that once a thing is hidden, it is out of sight. That is not at
all the case. There comes a moment when it is too late to conceal; when
curiosity will bring the hidden thing twice vividly before the eyes.
Under the very nose of John, was the best place for that secret bottle
of pills, had she needed it not to be seen.
As it was, his eyes travelled more quickly than her hand. She made a
gentle little effort to hide her concern as well. She smiled up at him,
asking where he had been. But it would not do. The child is parent to
the man, he is parent to the woman too--a stern parent, moreover, who
will brook no simple trifling with his authority, who overlooks nothing
and whose judgments are the blind record of an implacable justice. John
could not let that little deception pass. Instead of answering her
question, instead of taking his place at the table, he came to her side
and put one arm gently round her neck.
"What are you hiding, dearest?" he asked.
Like a child, who is discovered in the act of nefarious negotiations
with the good things of this world, she quietly took her hand away.
There stood the innocent little bottle in all its nakedness. John
stared at it questioningly--then at his mother.
"Is it something that you have to take, dearest?" he asked. "Aren’t you
well?"
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