"Don’tcher really, now? Don’tcher really?"
John had not smiled; but this--well, of course, this made up for
everything. _The_ Mr. Chesterton would not have thought of Time and
Tide being like a pair of children goin’ to a circus! Now, if he were
to write that and a few other things like it, which he dared say he
could think of easily enough, he, too, might be a great man whose name
would be on the lips of such women as that perfect little lady upstairs.
Then she _would_ understand the likes of him.
"Then you think I suited the part?" he said cheerfully at the door.
"I think, under the circumstances and everything being considered, you
did it wonderfully," said John. "And as for your being good enough to
trust me--well--it’s finer than all the epigrams in the world."
He wrung his hand once more and the little man departed happily down the
Lane, thinking of all the clever things that he would say to his old
woman when eventually he got home. But--Time and Tide, like a pair of
children--he knew he’d never beat that. She had smiled at it. She had
thought it clever. The other things that came laboriously into his mind
as he walked down the Lane, were not a patch on it.
The moment John had closed the door, he flew upstairs.
"Well--what do you think of _the great_ Mr. Chesterton?" he asked with a
laugh.
"I do not think his conversation is nearly as good as his writing," said
Jill.
"But you smiled at that last thing he said."
"Yes, I know." She explained it first with her eyes and then, "He was
going," she added--"and I think it must have been relief."
John’s heart thumped. A light of daring blazed in his eyes. It was
relief! She was glad to be alone with him! This meant more than the
look of disappointment. He had crossed the room, found himself beside
her, found her hand gripped fiercely in his before he realised that he
had obeyed the volition to do so.
"You wanted us to be alone?" he whispered.
"Yes--I’ve got a lot I want to say."
Had the moment not been such as this, he would have caught the note of
pain that vibrated in her voice; but he was in the whirlwind of his
love. It was deafening in his ears, it was blinding in his eyes;
because then he knew she loved him also. He heard nothing. He saw
nothing. Her hand was to his lips and he was kissing every finger.
Presently he held her hand to him and looked up.
"You knew this," he said--"didn’t you? You knew this was bound to be?"
She bent her head.
"I don’t know what it means," he went on passionately. "I haven’t the
faintest idea what it means. I love you--that’s all. You mean
everything to me. But I can’t ask you to marry me. It wouldn’t be
fair." A thought of Mr. Chesterton rushed across his mind. "I--I can
barely keep myself in rooms like these. I couldn’t keep you. So I
suppose I haven’t a moment’s right to say one of these things to you.
But I had to say them. You knew I was going to say them--didn’t
you--Jill--my Jill--you knew--didn’t you?"
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