"You!" she exclaimed. The door opened wider to her hand. "Come in."
He took off his hat and stepped in. His manner was strange. He knew it
was strange; he understood the look of question in her eyes as she
stared at him--it reflected the look in his own mind.
"Are you alone?" he asked.
She nodded her head.
"My aunt is staying with me," she explained, "but she’s gone to bed.
She’s got my bedroom. The mater’s gone to bed. I’m sleeping on the
floor in the drawing-room. I was sitting there. Come in."
He followed her into the drawing-room. There was her bed upon the
floor--a mattress, sheets and blanket. That was all.
"You’re sleeping there?" he said.
She said--"hm" with a little jerk of the head, in the most natural way
in the world. If he thought he knew what it was to be poor, he
flattered himself. He had been without meals, but he had never slept on
the floor.
"Isn’t it hard?" he questioned. "Do you go to sleep at all?"
She laughed gently under her breath.
"Good heavens, yes! I’m used to it. But what have you come for?"
She sat down in a heap, like a journeyman tailor, upon her bed, and
gazed up at him. At first, he did not know how to say it. Then he
blurted it out.
"I want you to come back again to see me in Fetter Lane."
She smiled with pride. Her mind reached for its box of bricks. He had
sent her away from Fetter Lane. That was all over--past--done with.
"That’s rather unexpected--isn’t it?"
"I can’t help that," he exclaimed, with a moment of wildness.
"But after all you’ve said?"
"I can’t help what I’ve said. It holds good no longer. I take it all
back. It means nothing."
She knelt up quickly on her knees. Dignity comes often before humanity
with a woman, but pity will always outride the two. Something had
happened to him. He was in trouble. The old appeal he had once made to
her rose out of the pity that she felt. She stretched up her hands to
his shoulders.
"What’s happened?" she asked--"tell me what’s happened."
He dropped on to the mattress on the floor. He told her everything. He
told her how far his ideals had fallen in those last few days. He
stripped the whole of his mind for her to lash if she chose; he stripped
it, like a child undressing for a whipping.
When he had finished, she sat back again in her former position. She
stared into the empty grate.
"I wonder," said she--"I wonder does the man exist who can bear
disappointment without becoming like that."
That was the only lash that fell from her. And she did not direct it
upon him, but it whipped across the nakedness of his mind with a
stinging blow. He winced under it. It made him long to be that man.
Yet still, there was his desire; still there was the fear, that
circumstance would balk him of his oblivion.
"Why do you say that?" he asked.
"Because, I thought you would be different," she said.
"I’m as human as the rest," said he. "I’m the crank, of course--but I’m
a human crank. Will you come back to me again?"
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