Before the invaders the Rumanian towns were going down like houses built
of blocks. In her attitude to Rumania, Russia was a mystery—a husband
who sees his wife fighting for her life and doing hardly anything to
help her. The rumors, true or false, that reached us might have been
torn from some stupendous, improbable romance—a feeble Czar, a beautiful
and traitorous Czarina, a corrupt nobility, an army betrayed, a people
seething in dreams and furies and ignorance. Washington, having gone so
far as to ask the Allied nations their peace conditions, had received
them—restitution, reparation, and future security. Then late in that
month of January, 1917, there came to people like me an unexpected shock.
Before the Senate President Wilson delivered the speech of which the tag
that ran electrically round the world was peace without victory.
I mention these things because they are the only waymarks of a time
during which my private life seemed to be drearily and hopelessly at a
standstill. The deadlock of the nations reacted on myself. Mentally I was
at grips with destiny, but nothing made any progress. I was exactly where
I had started, as regards Regina, as regards Cantyre, as regards Annette,
as regards the father and mother Barry. Outwardly I was on friendly terms
with them all, and on no more than friendly terms with any one.
The Barrys invited me to dinner, and I went. Cantyre made up a theater
party—he was fond of this form of recreation—and I went to that. Annette
asked me to a Sunday lunch at which Cantyre and Regina were guests.
The force of organized life held us together as a cohesive group; the
operation of conventional good manners kept us to courtesies. That
any one was happy I do not believe; but life threw its mask even on
unhappiness.
I got in, of course, an occasional word with Regina, which, nevertheless,
didn’t help me. As far as I could observe, she lived and moved in a kind
of hypnotic state, from which nothing I knew how to say could wake her.
She was always waiting for me to give the word, and I was afraid to give
it. If there was hypnotism, it affected us both, since I was as deeply in
the trance as she.
Now and then, however, she came out of it with some brief remark which
gave me a lead and perhaps made me hope. One such occasion was at the
theater. Cantyre had not put me next to her, but there was an entr’acte
when I found his place empty and slipped into it.
“And how are events taking their course?” I asked, with a semblance of
speaking cheerily.
“I’m waiting to see.”
“Still?”
“Still.”
“And how long is that to go on?”
“Till events have shaped their course in a way that will tell me what to
do.”
“How shall you know that?”
“How does the twig know when the current takes it from the spot where it
has been caught and carries it down-stream?”
“Oh, but you’ve got intelligence.”
“Any intelligence I’ve got implores me to keep on waiting.”
“So that you’re not going to be married right away?”
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