The Clean HeartHutchinson, A. S. M. (Arthur Stuart-Menteth)
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The Clean Heart
Hutchinson, A. S. M. (Arthur Stuart-Menteth)
Authors -- Fiction; Happiness -- Fiction
Endures! It is as if there had been discovered to him within him
some vital core, some spot, some nucleus of life, some living soul
and centre of him, capable of receiving the very quick and apotheosis
of torture, such as all his normal body and all his normal mind
delivered over to rack and irons could not have felt. There is a
point in human pain where pain, numbing the centres of the mind,
mercifully defeats itself and can no more. There is discovered to
him within him a core, a quick, an essence of him, capable of agony
to infinity, down into which, as a blunted knife, drives every
thought in writhing agony. In physical agony he writhes beneath
them, twisting his legs, driving his nails within his palms, bleeding
with his teeth his lips.
In that flash while she fell, and falling saved him: "She has given
her life for mine!" In that hour, that age, that all eternity of
time while, prone and powerless, rescued upon the cliff he lay:
"Twice, twice, I look upon a body lifeless to let mine live!" In
that stumbling progression before her bier: "Kill me! Kill me! O
vile, O worst, O foulest, unnameable thing, betake thyself to hell,
if any hell be vile enough to hold thee!"
Revelation! Revelation! As she fell, as he lay, as he stumbled, as
here he writhes in agony--revelation--and all his life in terrible
review beneath it. "Kill me! Kill me!" he groans. "O vile, O
worst, O foulest, unnameable thing, betake thyself to hell, if any
hell be vile enough to hold thee!"
"Not so. Not yet," there answers him. It is as though there speak
to him his thoughts with voice that peals imperatively through all
his being, reverberating through him in tremendous majesty of doom,
as through the aisles reverberates and makes to tremble all the air
an organ's swelling thunder.
"Not so! Not yet! Thou hast not strength to move to find thy hell.
Rise if thou canst. Stay, for thou must. Revelation is here.
Behold thy life beneath it!"
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