“I made no reply. I had found by bitter experience that if I intruded
into the conversation, I should only suffer the more.
“'I have sent down to Durazzo to get a doctor,' he went on; 'naturally
having taken all this trouble I don't want to lose you by death. She
is breaking up,' he repeated with relish and yet with an undertone of
annoyance in his voice; 'she asked for you three times this morning.'
“I kept myself under control as I had never expected that a man so
desperately circumstanced could do.
“'Kara,' I said as quietly as I could, 'what has she done that she
should deserve this hell in which she has lived?'
“He sent out a long ring of smoke and watched its progress across the
dungeon.
“'What has she done?' he said, keeping his eye on the ring--I shall
always remember every look, every gesture, and every intonation of his
voice. 'Why, she has done all that a woman can do for a man like me. She
has made me feel little. Until I had a rebuff from her, I had all the
world at my feet, Lexman. I did as I liked. If I crooked my little
finger, people ran after me and that one experience with her has broken
me. Oh, don't think,' he went on quickly, 'that I am broken in love. I
never loved her very much, it was just a passing passion, but she killed
my self-confidence. After then, whenever I came to a crucial moment
in my affairs, when the big manner, the big certainty was absolutely
necessary for me to carry my way, whenever I was most confident of
myself and my ability and my scheme, a vision of this damned girl rose
and I felt that momentary weakening, that memory of defeat, which made
all the difference between success and failure.
“'I hated her and I hate her still,' he said with vehemence; 'if
she dies I shall hate her more because she will remain everlastingly
unbroken to menace my thoughts and spoil my schemes through all
eternity.'
“He leant forward, his elbows on his knees, his clenched fist under his
chin--how well I can see him!--and stared at me.
“'I could have been king here in this land,' he said, waving his hand
toward the interior, 'I could have bribed and shot my way to the throne
of Albania. Don't you realize what that means to a man like me? There is
still a chance and if I could keep your wife alive, if I could see her
broken in reason and in health, a poor, skeleton, gibbering thing that
knelt at my feet when I came near her I should recover the mastery of
myself. Believe me,' he said, nodding his head, 'your wife will have the
best medical advice that it is possible to obtain.'
“Kara went out and I did not see him again for a very long time. He sent
word, just a scrawled note in the morning, to say my wife had died.”
John Lexman rose up from his seat, and paced the apartment, his head
upon his breast.
“From that moment,” he said, “I lived only for one thing, to punish
Remington Kara. And gentlemen, I punished him.”
He stood in the centre of the room and thumped his broad chest with his
clenched hand.
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