A chaotic conflict between hate, sorrow, and a quiet, scarcely
perceptible feeling of homesickness began to rage in Janina's heart.
The bell rang in the anteroom.
Janina sat down and waited quietly. She heard the door opening, the
voices of Grzesikiewicz and Sowinska, and the sound of an overcoat
being hung up.
"May I come in?" asked a voice outside.
"Please do," she whispered, choking with trepidation as she arose
from her chair.
Grzesikiewicz entered. His face was even more sunburnt than usual
and his blue eyes seemed bluer. He walked stiffly and erectly like a
petrified block of meat squeezed into a tight surtout with
difficulty. He almost threw his hat upon a basket standing near the
door and, kissing Janina's hand, said quickly: "Good morning . . ."
He straightened himself, scanned her face with his eyes and sat down
heavily in a chair.
"I had a hard time finding you . . ." he began, and suddenly broke
off. Then, as if to bolster up his courage, he attempted to shove
aside a chair that interfered with his actions but pushed it so hard
that it fell over.
He sprang up, all red in the face, and began to apologize.
Janina smiled, so vividly did that impulsive action remind her of
their last talk and that unfortunate proposal. And for a moment it
seemed to her that it was now that he was to propose and that they
were sitting in the quiet parlor at Bukowiec. She could not explain
to herself the impression that he made on her with that honest face,
worn by suffering, and with those bright blue eyes which seemed to
bring with them echoes of those beloved fields and woods, those
quiet glens, that golden sunlight and the free and bounteous life of
nature. For one fleeting moment her mind dwelt on all this, but at
the same time there awoke memories of all her sufferings and her
banishment.
She handed him a box of cigarettes and said in an easy tone,
breaking the somewhat prolonged silence: "You give proof of no small
courage and . . . kindness by visiting me after all that has
happened. . . ."
"Do you remember what I told you the last time," he answered,
subduing and softening his voice, "that I would never and
always! . . . That I would never cease and would always continue to
love you!"
Janina moved impatiently, for his deeply sincere accent pained her.
"I beg your pardon . . . if it makes you angry, I will not say
another word about myself . . ." he said with resignation.
"What is the news from home?" she asked, raising her eyes to his.
"How can I tell you? . . . It's something that beggars all
description. You would not know your father; he has become an
impossible autocrat in his official duties, and outside of them he
goes hunting, visits his neighbors, whistles to himself . . . but
has become so thin and worn that it is hard to recognize him. Worry
is eating him away like a canker."
"Why? . . . What is there for my father to worry about?"
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