Adventure stories; Great Britain -- History -- Charles II, 1660-1685 -- Fiction; Historical fiction
I had eased my heart in speaking, and so I said no more for the time.
Never perhaps had a man a more doubtful future than I, and yet I could
have shouted for very joy. She heard not the song of the skylark as it
mounted to the heavens, nor the notes of the thrushes as they poured
forth their music to God. But I did, and it seemed to me as though they
were God's messengers telling me not to be afraid to love, for it was
His will. That she could ever love me never came into my heart. How
could she? What was I that a maid so peerless in her beauty, so glorious
in her life of sacrifice for another, should ever think of me save as
one who delighted to do her will? But I had the joy of loving, and
although my love were full of pain, and unsatisfied yearnings, I still
loved, and rejoiced in it.
"Why? Why?" I heard her whisper presently.
"Because God would have it so," I made answer. "He brought us together
that I might love you, and serve you. And this I will do as long as I
have life and thought!"
"But if I am thrown into prison?"
"I shall still love you. Prison is nothing. Love has broken the bolts
from many a prison door before this, aye, and will again."
"But what is the use of loving me?"
"To serve you."
"But if you cannot serve me?"
"Then I shall still have the joy of loving you. This let me say: what
will happen I know not, but you must not be afraid. I shall be always
thinking about you--always."
"But the king may keep me in prison for years."
"He will not; but if he does, what then? He cannot live for ever.
Suppose we never meet again until we are old, I shall still love you."
Again there was a long silence between us, so long that I thought she
had forgotten all I had said, so long that my mind had begun to wander.
I had begun to paint pictures of the future years when we, both grown
old, had met again, and I had renewed my vows to her.
"But if I were to love another, and wed him, what then?" She said this
suddenly, as though the thought had just occurred to her.
"I don't know," I said, and my heart grew cold as I spoke. "Of course
you can never love me, but I shall pray God that you may never love
another."
"Love is not for me," she said presently; and I knew she was thinking of
what might happen to her.
"If I were only worthy it would be," I said. "I have learnt many things
since that night before the trial in the Chapel of Herne. I have learnt
that love laughs at the wisdom of the wise. Do you know that the walls
of Bedford Gaol troubled me not one whit nor did the presence of the
gaolers keep me from seeing your face. We are guarded now on the right
hand, and on the left. We can hear the rough laugh of those who watch
over us, can hear the clanking of their spurs, and the noise of horses'
hoofs, but for two hours I have never thought of them. We have our life
in our own hearts--that is why."
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