Didactic fiction; Political fiction; Social problems -- Fiction
He talked on as he stripped off his coat and waistcoat and hung them
neatly on the clothes-tree, permitting her to see all the consideration
he had given to his chances for securing this big commission.
Evidently he had been turning it over and over in his mind, and he was
desperately nervous lest he might lose what he had counted on having
all along ever since his marriage. He refrained from telling his wife
that he felt she had seconded him feebly in this matter; for she knew
the judge, and Pemberton, and Everett, too, a great deal better than he
did. They had always paid her rather marked attention.
Helen said nothing. There was nothing in her surprised and grieved
heart to be said. For the first time she saw clearly what manner of
man her husband was. She knew how he felt about his uncle. He was
vindictive about him, and seemed to welcome this job as a chance to get
even with the old man for slighting him in his will. For some reason
unknown to her he had not tried at the time of his death to break his
will and show his ingratitude, and now he regretted that he had
displayed so much forbearance.
This sudden sight of the nakedness of the man she loved dulled her
heart so that she could not view the thing simply. It was impossible
for her to see that there was nothing very dreadful in her husband's
attitude, nothing more than a little ordinary human selfishness,
sharpened by that admirable system of civilized self-interest which our
philosophers and statesmen so delight to praise. She had been dreaming
that her husband might have the honor to design this great building as
a testimonial, a monument of gratitude, to the man who had succored his
youth, who had given him his education! Her sentiment turned rancid in
her heart.
"Now if Everett or the judge should say anything to you, give you a
chance, you know what it means to me," Jackson remarked finally, as he
put his boots outside the door for the man to get in the morning. He
had meant to say more than this, to point out to her in detail the
service she could do them both. Something in her manner, however,
restrained him, and he contented himself with this final hint.
But Helen had stepped back into the dressing-room and did not hear him.
When she returned her husband was already in bed, and his eyelids were
closed in sleep. She placed herself beside him and turned out the
light.
She lay there a long, long time, her open eyes staring upward into the
darkness, her arms stretched straight beside her, as she used to lie
when she was a little child, and her nurse had told her to be good and
not to stir. Something strange had happened that day, something
impalpable, unnamable, yet true, and of enormous importance to the
woman. The man who lay there beside her, her husband, the indivisible
part of her, had been suddenly cut from her soul, and was once more his
own flesh--some alien piece of clay, and ever so to be.
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