Didactic fiction; Political fiction; Social problems -- Fiction
He lay in the gathering twilight, listened, and saw. And at last the
soul of the man, which had been long in hiding, came back, and flowed
into him once more. A deep, new longing filled his heart, a desire to
be once again as he had been before, to rise from his debasement and
become clean, to slough off this parasitic self into which he had grown
all these years of his strife in the city, to be born anew like the
springtime earth--such longings as come to men when they are sickened
with the surfeit of their passions.
... He knew now why his wife had left him. She had felt the leper
taint, which had been eating at his heart all the years of their
marriage, and had repudiated it. She had cried out against the mere
getting and spending of money, to which low ebb those lofty ambitions
of his youth had descended before her eyes. She had loved him as the
creator, the builder; and he had given her no visions, but only the
sensualities of modern wealth. "Let us begin again and live the common
life," she had cried out to him. "Let us live for work and not for
money." He had put her aside with contempt, and refused to open the
dark places of his life to her. Now he knew that she had done well to
leave him to his own day of judgment. And the first impulse in the
man's new soul was to go to her, humbly, and say to her: "You were
right. I have sinned against myself, against you, against life, all
along the way. Will you accept my repentance, and love me again from
the beginning, knowing now the truth?" Ardently he desired to hear her
answer; but his heart left him in doubt as to what that answer might
be. For he understood at last that he had never known this woman, who
had been his wife for eight years.
Nevertheless, despite this hunger of his heart for the woman he loved,
there rose in him slowly a purging sense of relief from crime and sin
committed. It had passed away, was put off from himself. Surely he
was to come once more into peace! The upspringing life of the
reincarnated earth chanted all about him but one song: "Here I leave my
uncleanness. Life is strong and good. There is, for all, forgiveness
and peace. Here I bury the filth of my deeds, and renew my hope."
Thus man rises again and again from the depths of his abasement; thus
springs in him a new hope, a vital, imperishable element, the soul of
his being; and he is prepared afresh for the struggle. Deep within him
there lies forever the unconquerable conviction of his power to rise,
to renew himself.
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