In childhood, we fancied ourselves walled in by the horizon, as by a
glass bell, and doubted not, by distant travel, we should reach the
baths of the descending sun and stars. On experiment, the horizon flies
before us, and leaves us on an endless common, sheltered by no glass
bell. Yet ’tis strange how tenaciously we cling to that bell-astronomy,
of a protecting domestic horizon. I find the same illusion in the
search after happiness, which I observe, every summer, recommenced in
this neighborhood, soon after the pairing of the birds. The young
people do not like the town, do not like the sea-shore, they will go
inland; find a dear cottage deep in the mountains, secret as their
hearts. They set forth on their travels in search of a home: they reach
Berkshire; they reach Vermont; they look at the farms;—good farms, high
mountain-sides: but where is the seclusion? The farm is near this; ’tis
near that; they have got far from Boston, but ’tis near Albany, or near
Burlington, or near Montreal. They explore a farm, but the house is
small, old, thin; discontented people lived there, and are gone:—there’s
too much sky, too much out-doors; too public. The youth aches for
solitude. When he comes to the house, he passes through the house. That
does not make the deep recess he sought. ’Ah! now, I perceive,’ he says,
’it must be deep with persons; friends only can give depth.’ Yes, but
there is a great dearth, this year, of friends; hard to find, and hard
to have when found: they are just going away: they too are in the whirl
of the flitting world, and have engagements and necessities. They are
just starting for Wisconsin; have letters from Bremen:—see you again,
soon. Slow, slow to learn the lesson, that there is but one depth, but
one interior, and that is—his purpose. When joy or calamity or genius
shall show him it, then woods, then farms, then city shopmen and
cab-drivers, indifferently with prophet or friend, will mirror back to
him its unfathomable heaven, its populous solitude.
The uses of travel are occasional, and short; but the best fruit it
finds, when it finds it, is conversation; and this is a main function of
life. What a difference in the hospitality of minds! Inestimable is he
to whom we can say what we cannot say to ourselves. Others are
involuntarily hurtful to us, and bereave us of the power of thought,
impound and imprison us. As, when there is sympathy, there needs but
one wise man in a company, and all are wise,—so, a blockhead makes a
blockhead of his companion. Wonderful power to benumb possesses this
brother. When he comes into the office or public room, the society
dissolves; one after another slips out, and the apartment is at his
disposal. What is incurable but a frivolous habit?
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