The confessions of a well-meaning womanMcKenna, Stephen
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The confessions of a well-meaning woman
McKenna, Stephen
English fiction -- 20th century; Upper class -- England -- Fiction; Women -- England -- Fiction
And then I'm not sure that the second shock wasn't worse than the
first. Colonel Butler! Phyllida's soldier-hero, driving a cab! He
had won a Military Cross and a D.S.O.--with a bar, I believe; he had
always seemed a manly, straightforward young fellow--and here he was
driving a cab! "This--_this_--" I felt myself apostrophizing
Phyllida, Brackenbury, that poor fool Ruth--"this is what I've saved
you from." ... And then one had a certain revulsion of feeling: the
pity of it! ... And then stark horror! If Phyllida met him! Not
_then_; I knew she was at a dance with Will and would not be back for
hours, but at any moment when I was not there to protect her from
herself. I recalled her dreadful threat that, if she saw or heard of
Hilary Butler, she would fling herself into his arms and beg him to
marry her...
"But--of course I remember you," I said.
He smiled--without embarrassment of any kind--and walked up the steps
with me.
"Have you a key?," he asked, "or shall I ring?"
He _spoke_ so nicely... If you like, just a touch of what I think
must be West Country; but, when things were at their worst and I felt
that we had to be prepared for anything, it was a slight consolation
to know that he could easily have it drilled out of him... I could
have done the same for Ruth twenty-three years ago, but she seemed to
pride herself on her provincialism.
Now I wonder what you would have done... When Phyllida was nursing
him at the hospital--or just afterwards--, he was _always_ in Mount
Street, lunching, dining; before they took to going about by
themselves _quite_ so much, we had all been to the play, he had seen
us home--just like this--and asked me--just like this--whether I had
my key or whether he should ring... There was no one at home; even
Arthur was in the country. I felt I _couldn't_ suddenly freeze...
"I have my key, thanks," I said. "Won't you come in for a moment?"
He stopped his engine and came in... Now, I wonder what you would
have done, if you'd been in _his_ place? ... He took off coat and
gloves (he was wearing quite a presentable blue suit underneath), and
I led the way into the morning-room, where I offered him cigarettes
and something to drink ... wondering the whole time, don't you know,
why one had _done_ it and how long he would stay... _With_ the coat
and cap he seemed to divest himself of what I can only call the
professional manner; asked me if I wouldn't have a little of my own
brandy, commented on some new curtains I'd bought when we did up the
house after Hilda Culroyd's illness. _Absolutely_ at home...
"How is Phyllida?," he asked.
"My niece is very well, thank you," I answered, hardly caring--at
that moment--to notice the familiarity. "And what have _you_ been
doing with yourself since last we met?," I made haste to ask.
"Oh, as you see," he said, "I've turned taxi-man. Owner-driver. One
in action, four in support and nine training."
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