The confessions of a well-meaning womanMcKenna, Stephen
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The confessions of a well-meaning woman
McKenna, Stephen
English fiction -- 20th century; Upper class -- England -- Fiction; Women -- England -- Fiction
I _hope_ I did nothing to suggest that one can have too much even of
percentages and running expenses and allowances for depreciation and
the like, but he jumped up suddenly and said:
"Well, I mustn't keep you and I mustn't be late for my next job. I
hope your brother and Lady Brackenbury are all right? I see Culroyd
is married."
"They are all very well," I said, as I walked with him to the door.
"If I may ask a favour, Lady Ann, don't tell any of them what I'm
doing," he begged.
Do you know, that was the only jarring note... The first
recognition, of course, was a _shock_. "D.S.O. Taxi-driver," don't
you know? In some strange way it _grates_... Having _taken_ the
plunge, our young friend, I felt, was entitled to the highest credit,
and anything like false shame would have been discordant.
"They would be the first," I said, "to join me in applauding your
resolution and hoping for your success."
"But I want it to be a surprise," he said.
At that, my heart _sank_.
"But why?," I asked.
"For Phyllida's sake," he answered. "I've not seen her since that
week-end at the Hall, I've not written to her; and she can't write to
me, because she doesn't know where I am. I presume she's not
engaged, because I've seen no announcement of it, but I don't want to
do anything that may stand in her light. If my present scheme fails,
I shall have to start on something else; if it succeeds--and when it
succeeds--, it will be time enough for me to see what's happened to
her. I've never forgotten our talk. If I didn't love a girl, I
might cheerfully marry her for her money; but, when I _do_ love her,
I couldn't bear to have people even hinting such a thing. You told
me that she had four thousand of her own; when I can go to her father
and say that I'm making more than that--clear profit to my own
pocket--, I shan't be afraid to look any one in the face. But I've
not asked her to wait for me; and, if in the meantime she meets any
one that she wants to marry more, no one will ever hear me complain."
And then he buttoned himself into his coat--even now I couldn't
_quite_ get over the disc with the number on it, hanging from a
button-hole--, picked up his cap and held out his hand.
I walked to the door,--and then my heart seemed to stop. You may
remember that the horn of our car has a note which I at least find
unmistakable. I heard it in the distance, I heard it coming nearer.
Phyllida and Will! It was only twelve, and I had not expected them
for hours. Evidently the dance had not been to their liking. I
_prayed_ that I might prove equal to the crisis...
"Colonel Butler!," I cried. (One never troubled to think whether he
should _rightly_ be given his military rank). "Shut that door! Run
upstairs to the drawing-room! Hide there till I fetch you, but on no
account turn on the light! My niece is coming now; if you want to
avoid her..."
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