The confessions of a well-meaning womanMcKenna, Stephen
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The confessions of a well-meaning woman
McKenna, Stephen
English fiction -- 20th century; Upper class -- England -- Fiction; Women -- England -- Fiction
"It's easy to see why men should fall down and worship _you_," I said.
"Who's in love with me now?," she asked with the laugh of a child,
_exulting_ in her beauty, as it were, until in a flash I saw that her
whole life was natural to her... Inevitable, I might say.
"Arthur Spenworth," I told her.
"Oh, he's a dear old thing," she answered.
"He is my husband," I said.
I might have added "and the father of our boy," but I would make no
_appeal_; I had come there to decide dispassionately what had to be
done... The woman jumped up and faced me, but I stood my ground.
Her eyes kept changing in expression, and I saw that she was first
bewildered ... and then defiant ... then curious ... then a little
ashamed, then defiant again and once more bewildered.
"Well?," she said; and then in spite of herself, as it were, "You're
not a bit like what I expected."
"Older perhaps?," I asked. "My dear young lady, my husband and I are
much of an age, but he carries his years better. Why, goodness me,
you are a child! Our boy must be ten years older than you... Won't
you ask me to sit down? Walking upstairs makes me out of breath, and
I want to have a little talk with you. I have only just heard of
this; and I want to know what is to be done. You will find me a
reasonable woman, I hope, and perhaps I know too much of the world to
judge hastily or reproach easily. Won't you tell me everything, so
that we may understand better how we are situated?"
Do you know, _because_ I remained dispassionate, I felt in a moment
that I was holding my own and in another moment that I was gaining
ground. I who had walked upstairs wondering whether my knees would
give way under me... It was Mrs. Templedown who was embarrassed...
And I had not sought to make myself a ruler or a judge...
I will not weary you with the story. Arthur had met her--in the
train from Birmingham! Is there not dignity and distinction in that?
He had asked her to dine with him on reaching London, they had met
three or four times, Arthur had begun giving her little presents.
How much one can _ever_ believe of such a woman's story I do not
profess to judge. She _vowed_ that their relations were innocent,
that her husband's death had left her heart-broken and that she was
simply and sincerely grateful to any man who shewed her a little
kindness; in that class I gather it is only natural for every girl to
have some benevolent elderly protector who takes her out to dinner
and gives her little presents. If it had not been Arthur, I was to
understand, it would have been some one else. I confess that her
ingenuousness rang a little hollow when she betrayed how intimately
and accurately she knew who he was--the connection with Spenworth on
one side and with Brackenbury on the other; like the rest of them,
she hunted with one quarry--or one type of quarry--definitely in
view...
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